Strawberryland

End..

2011-04-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

Done.. Everything is done.. Now adaptation mode..

We are stronger this time..

2011-02-27T21:58:00.003+08:00

Finally another round of apart. Although this time would be a much easier and less tough one, departing is still a difficult task for us both. Hopefully the lesson we learnt from the last time can make us more clever in dealing with this kind of thing.

The small last talk just now was great although we both break into tears. At least our heart is closer to each other, our hug is tighter, our kiss is so deep and our tears is so real... At least those tears is a more positive one if we think from the good way.. I know we can manage it in a much better way this time. Things happen makes us grow.

All the best dear in your first job. I know you can do it and just believe in yourself. I am always here willing to be your listener and will always support you. Take good care and I will too. So do no worry about it..

Mum's surgery in another week+ time. I know she is bit worry about it and so do us. But relying on God makes us felt much more confident about it.. Hope everything goes really well...

I want to go travel....

2011-02-24T11:52:00.002+08:00

Air Asia promotion is so tempting.. Really loves going travelling especially now the air ticket is so affordable and very soon, am earning Singapore dollar and that makes the value of our money higher. Saving for travelling is no more really that hard. When the money is no more the problem, another problem arises. You are the only one wanted to go travelling. Don't really understand what makes it so hard to go decide and set an aim as a motivation for our hard work. Haiz.. Really potong steam to the max!!!!!!!!!!

$ is everything..

2011-01-28T19:14:00.002+08:00

What I want is just some effort? Am I asking too much? I know I should have be more understanding but I also need people to understand and see things inside my shoes. Ya, $ is always more important, even me...

Am sick again physically and mentally..

2011-01-23T16:37:00.004+08:00

Just back from Genting Highland with dear, Dang, Soo Chin and Amos. Still remember how 11 of us went there and had a real good trip and now left with five of us here visiting the same place. The worst thing is me and dear fall sick so badly there. Flu and fever isn't feeling that good at Genting because it is way too cold to be bear by two patients.

Sometimes I feel it kinda san fu because I couldn't differentiate whether it is really from the heart, pretending or actually it's just a sense of responsibility. This makes me feeling insecure again. hi to my old dear friend..

I had few chances to actually view those things but I choose not to. Not because I am really that saint but what if I saw something that I shouldn't, then my heart will be ache like nobody business and what if those pictures are no more there? My heart will be more painful because I know he is hiding things from me definitely. Never even think of being honest with me.. Haiz..

LOL

2011-01-18T22:05:00.001+08:00

Can't wait for the weekend short getaway. can't wait can't wait.. Hope it is a good one. Am lazy to blog recently.. So this is it.. LOL..

Weird

2011-01-08T11:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I had a new haircut. Colouring my hair for the very first time and perming it after few years time. Not a bad trying but I am still quite worried the after first wash maintenance. It could be troublesome and a long work. But still I am quite happy with it.

Yesterday I had a super weird dream. I dream of so many things and the single thing that I remember is the time spending with both of them. It is such ridiculous but it seems like hinting something or just me being too overreacted. I really does not know how is my future gonna be like with the conditions now but I am trying my very best to do what I can.. Hopefully everything goes well..

and today 8/1/2011 is our 3.5 Anniversary together. Happy Anniversary dear.. Muacks.. Love you..

The days with him around...

2010-12-24T12:14:00.010+08:00

Ever since he came back, so many events, outing, celebrations and trips going around.. What a busy and wallet bleeding month. Full of tears and laughter at the same time... Lazy to blog one by one, as usual, pictures do the talking for me..

Outing ( Pavillion )

Hatyai Trip

41st Anniversary Celebrations

My 23rd birthday Celebrations

Malacca Trip

Sing K session with dear's YNP gang

Actually there's tonnes more but I am only choosing some to post it up here as an update to those who sincerely wanted to know what's going on in my life recently. Pictures on lunches and Mal's birthday celebrations is yet to come. Another thing that I would love to announce to my dear blog reader is I decided to try my luck at our neighbour country, Singapore. Now seeking around for jobs, anyone has any contacts or recommendations, do contact me personally ya.. Thanks...

Piece and bits of life

2010-11-30T20:07:00.003+08:00

Remember I was saying about thinking whether to attend the day or not? But that is just the outer me, inner me am so happy with the invitation. I told all my close friend about it and they realize how excited I am. I already spare that few days for this. I rejected a few invitations too. I am even thinking about the preparation for that night already. I even told my mum about it. But a news drag me from heaven to hell. I am so disappointed. I have a feeling that I am not yet accepted by them. I am still not part of them. How do I tell people about it? I am just being silly to be so simple-minded. What can I do? Even him is not fighting for me. I can just say ok, fine ( nod my head unwillingly... sob sob.. )

Sometimes I think i am too overstressed on the term responsibility and promise. I always put so much burden on myself and I need to fulfill all the promises. I think that is very important or the basic element of a human being. but i think i am overstressing it.

I am done with my thesis. Finally everything is done. job hunting will be starting soon. hope that I can find a job that I am desired of..

Tired..

2010-11-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Just back and it's super tired.. shall blog about it very soon with pictures..

Craziness

2010-11-24T17:13:00.002+08:00

Dear..

Us at Pavillion..

Another one..

The outdoor view but a little too small

Thesis is driving me crazy..

Another two more days to our Hatyai trip.. Hopefully the tedious task will come to an end. Tired of planning and co-ordinating..

The Important Reunion...

2010-11-15T22:49:00.006+08:00

Finally the long waiting 155days has come to an end.. I was thinking maybe the felling would be very different after going through all the things this 5 months.. Ya, the moment I saw him from the arrival, I have some weird feeling and the feeling is like I don't really close to him.. I don't know how to response.. Maybe because we have not seen each other for 5 freaking months.. But all the feelings came back straight after a while.. Today the first day was awesome.. I can feel the feeling that we have for each other in the very beginning of our relationship.. very sweet and loving.. As if in our eyes only manage to place each other.. Dunno leh, maybe this is one sided but I am really satisfied with today.. haha.. hope the happy2 and sweet us comes back will lasts......

Wishlists..

2010-11-12T12:56:00.008+08:00

I have so many plans in mind.. Since no one will read this blog, might as well I just write it here to remind myself the incomplete missions..

I want to:

Korean Food again at Korean Village
I-City, Klang
Ikea meatball
Mahjong session
Tony Roma
Sashimi..
Buffets..
Puchong Shabu Shabu
More trips: short or long will do (Ex: Bali, East Malaysia, Malacca and Genting again? Island: Langkawi, Redang, Pangkor)
Getting an Iphone
More movies.. Long since I watch movies..

Uncountable things I wanna do... Haiz.. Don't when can I do all of this?

And another thing, all this 23 years of living, I finally know my lunar calendar's birthday: 23/10..

Means it is equivalent to 28/11 this year.. If everything alright, I will be at Hatyai celebrating it..

I am really do not understand why sometimes I have to take all the blame that I have nothing to do with.. Those who close to me will know the thing I hate the most are false accused and frame but why did I take all the blame although I did not at all intend to start any arguments? I really don't know why... So pain but i choose to use that heart bleeding way to stop the arguments.. People always say, what make my day? I would say now what ruin my day? because I am blind and stupid lo.. No other explanation for it..

A blog with no reader...

2010-11-11T16:27:00.001+08:00

I am right.. This blog has no reader.. No one reads my blog.. that is good.. Means I can crap and shit whatever I want here...

8 Signs of Rocky Relationship...

2010-11-10T21:39:00.001+08:00

WHEN a relationship ends in divorce, you often hear one partner exclaiming that he/she had no idea things would have turned out that way. Really and truly though, relationships don't just go sour overnight, there are normally tell-tale signs that scream that something is not right. Some people ignore these signs, hoping they will just go away, while others are too busy to even notice them. Couples should take the time to examine what they are doing right and look for ways to improve those things that they are not.

If you ignore the signs, you should never point fingers or blame anyone if things don't work out your way. Here are eight signs to identify a rocky relationship.

Sign # 1 — Communication is minimal: If you find that you are only exchanging words about the weather, the children, the house, or if you are just saying hi and bye, or yes and no, then your relationship could be in big trouble. It doesn't matter how long you have been together, you should be engaging in regular communication. You should be talking about your hopes and dreams, your joys and sorrows and everything else in-between.

Sign # 2 — When sex is by appointment only: Some may feel that because they are still engaging in sexual activities then all is well; this is not necessarily true. Remember that some people will have sex only out of a sense of duty, no motion, no lotion, or anything of the sort. Mark you, it is a couple's prerogative to choose sex by appointment, but eyebrows should be raised if that's their only method.

Sign # 3 — Constant threat of divorce: For those who are married, it is wrong to keep on threatening your spouse with divorce as soon as you are displeased. When you consistently entertain the thoughts of divorce, it will easily become a reality. Constant mention of divorce can suggest that you are unhappy, dissatisfied, or disappointed and you want out. Do not even joke about divorce, because it is a negative word and it can have negative connotations.

Sign # 4 — Talking down to each other: When you are downright disrespectful, that is one sure sign that your relationship is heading in the wrong direction. Watch your words, and let only the pleasant ones escape your lips. Talking down to each other should be a definite no-no.

Sign # 5 — Consistent arguing: Have you ever noticed how some couples are always arguing? Everything that one says offends the other? Couples who secretly resent each other may not verbalise their true feelings but sometimes, unbeknownst to them, it shows up when they are relating one to another.

Sign # 6 — Lack of trust: Regardless of what might have happened in the past, couples must find ways to restore the trust factor because it is a foregone conclusion that lack of trust is a root cause of breakdown in many relationships. I can almost hear you saying it is not that easy, but never fail to try and keep on looking on the bright side.

Sign # 7 — Plans only for self: Single people tend to think 'I', while married people normally think 'we'. Therefore, when things are not going right in the relationship, one partner may even subconsciously revert to the 'I' way of thinking.

Sign # 8 — Your spouse is not your friend: Lots of family therapists will tell you that your partner should be your best friend and I agree that this is the ideal. However, this might be easier said than done. If this is not your case, continue to work at it. If your spouse is not your friend, not even in a minute way, then it will only be a matter of time before your relationship ends.

Remember that your relationship is like a plant, treat it well and it will blossom and flourish to beautify your surroundings, but leave it unattended and uncared for and it withers and dies. A plant that is on the verge of death can be restored to life with proper care. Likewise, a relationship that is on the rocky road can be revived, if you are aware of what to look for and how to make the appropriate amendments.

Magic Word

2010-11-10T15:10:00.004+08:00

Got scolded just to wait for him to on9..

Got burned just because to learn to cook him something..

Needed to work very hard and survey all around just for his birthday present..

Sleepless night for 4.5 months just to wait for him..

Wake super early because worried about him..

Spend so much for him..

Planned so much and face so many obstacles just for a happy trip..

Got accused and being commented by friends which all the accuse is not true..

Tears are poured just as the greatest waterfall..

Mentally and physically exhausted because of him..

ETC & Etc & Etc... uncountable...

Everything is for him..

I am amazed that how Love can do to a person.. One can lose his mind totally for the word "love". one can totally become irrational and do whatever for the person that he/she thinks worthy.. But in return, what that person can get? If he/she is being appreciated, the love will flows continually and happily. But what if not? The suffers are feelings cannot be translated into words.. really fascinate how I can undergo all this pain and yet still can survived.. But how's the future? No one knows except the Almighty One.. It seems not bright enough for me because everything seems so one-sided.. What I am holding to that makes me still go on? I guess is the same old word: LOVE

Bodoh me...

2010-11-06T17:29:00.004+08:00

Am I really wrong? I just wanna care more and I really couldn't understand why my effort is always being stepped and put aside like beggar?? I did so much but why you wouldn't know to appreciate? I really don't want life like that.. I want someone that is supportive and always know how to appreciate me. So hard? Whether to go the gathering, now I should think properly.. before meeting them better make sure whether there's probability for us to go on or not.. I am so stupid for putting so much effort.. Now I don't think I want to do all thatI have planned dy.. Why should I? In return, just not appreciated and I am the wrong one.. Looking forward? Please la, don't be so naive.. What you think is good, doesn't mean people will like it.. Bodoh betul.. Please be more wise la, Sher... Waste your effort and more tears coming only... I realy feel like crying now.. but no1 will ever sakit hati for you also.... stupid

Korean Food for 3 consecutive day..

2010-11-02T20:34:00.006+08:00

Emptiness is killing..

2010-10-29T01:13:00.004+08:00

Why do I feel so empty inside suddenly. I should be sleeping at this time but I am here wandering around. I don't know why this feeling suddenly came attacking me in the middle of the night. I guess this is a signal that I am getting further and further from HIM. So sorry, I have been wandering and loitering that now I don't really know how to find my way back. Or am I feeling too insecure with things surrounding me? I couldn't give an answer to all my questions arousing..

Another 17days and he will be back to my side. But am I really sure with that? Physically coming back but what about mentally? Is everything will back to normal after he back? Is that all? His heart will return to what it was? I really couldn't predict the future nor does he. But I think I should put more time on thinking whether we should continue this or not.. I don't want things just keep repeating and the cycles never stop..

Emptiness really kills.. Scary..

Girl, the 8th wonder of the world...

2010-10-21T15:14:00.003+08:00

All about a girl:

When she is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.

When she is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When she staring at you, she is wondering why loves you so much in spite of being taken for granted.

When she calls you everyday, she wants to know how you are doing.

When she sms you everyday, she wants you to reply at least once.

When she says I miss you, no one in this world can miss you more than her.

When she says, i will stand by your side, she will stand by you like a rock.

Girls always special.

She is said to be the 8th wonder.

She is always a priceless treasure.

Never hurt her or take her wrong or for granted.

You asked for it..

2010-10-20T14:59:00.003+08:00

Why do I need to pay and then people still don't want to use your IDD? Why do I make myself till this level? When people not care, why should I care? Please, think rationally... On9 when other people on9 is such a bullshit thing. Will reply your email is also another bullshit. Will update you is the biggest lie where till now I don;t know a single thing about what they have done. I promised myself not to complain anymore. Or I should say I won't say much thing dy. I won't leave anything or say anything.. You want it that way And you asked for it.. And here you go.. No news from me anymore..

The candy of the day...

2010-10-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

@ Boyfriends who actually treat their girlfriends like princesses :)

@ A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and just listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...wait for the boy who kisses your cheek to show he cares.

@ Girl; how much do you love me? Boy; look up at the sky. Girl: don't change the subject! Boy: just do it! Girl, okay what am I doing? Boy: count how many stars there are? Girl: impossibe. Boy: and so is explaining my love for you♥

@ Girl: How much do you like me? Boy: Looks at grass. Girl: Hello? Boy: Can you count how many pieces of grass are on the ground? Girl: IMpossible. Boy: Excactly. Thats how hard it is for me to explain my love to you.

@ Boys who send good morning beautiful to their girl; holds her hand infront of their friends; sits down and talks to you when you have a problem; and making sure that each minute he tells you you're the best thing that's ever happend to him! ♥

@ Oh Im sorry, I thought I actually meant something to you... Silly me. on We ♥.

Man that don't deserve a job...

2010-10-03T21:22:00.004+08:00

I know it's been long since I crap here.. Yesterday is a day where I learn the cruelty of reality. Working life really let me learn a lot. I have never met such a person but it also makes me realized how a person's exterior appearance really did make great effect. I always thought that if I do what that is suppose correctly and nicely, then I can succeed but actually it is really far more complicated than what I naively thought. I could say this person makes me doubt about my thinking and ability but after a few chats with friends, I really think that is his problem. Totally someone that shouldn't be given a proper job. Wasting salary and the vacancy. Should have just let other more capable person to get the job. Bler.. I know I shouldn't be hating him but I just can't help myself. Maybe now I dun hate him but definitely not a sense of liking him.. blerr.. Stop humiliating me with money and believe me, it is your lost not choosing me.... Don't regret!!!!!!

Bad Mooncake Festival..

2010-09-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

What a Mooncake Festival.. A very lonely and boring one.. Looking at the playground every1 is there playing candles and tanglong which seems to familiar to me but there's no more chance for me to play.. A festive season that is suppose to be reunion season and also a day that we spend with the loved ones but I am alone at home looking at the laptop screen. I think dear sure 4gotten about this but I guess he also not so sure about this special day where he did not even celebrate it.. Besides the lonely feeling, there's so many bad news that I got, makes me having a mix feeling the whole night. Hopefully everything will goes well and I really don't want this kind of Mooncake festival anymore.. I don't care.. I shall do something next year..

Follow the Heart

2010-09-15T20:43:00.002+08:00

Am I doing what I suppose to? I am just following my heart and I don't mean to hurt anyone. I just want to do what I can to make the relationship better. So sorry if it makes you feel bad. I can have all the blame but I know this is the right decision to make. If not, more problems and suspecting will arise. At least now I don't have to worry so much. I hope you can really understand why am I doing this..

I am not myself anymore?

2010-09-13T22:45:00.003+08:00

I wanna be myself..

I wanna be joyful and bubbly as usual..

I wanna focus on other things too..

I don't want to hurt anyone..

I don't want to be negative and sensitive..

How come my sight is that narrow recently..

How do my heart support the rate of painfulness everyday, every minute..

I want dear to be back asap...

The starting and ending of 8th...

2010-09-08T15:40:00.002+08:00

Is that the end already? 8th is the starting point and also the ending one? Honestly I miss him... So many flash back of the moment we had together. But what to do, I gave opportunity but he did not really say anything wanting to get back into the relationship. Although the IDD time finishes, he can still come on9. But he did not.. So he is not really so wanted to rescue our r'ship also. So, I guess that's it la.. From now on, I have to get used of removing one person out of my life and start treating all his things as normal. Start tidying up the feeling, the explanation to everyone and everything relates to this 3 years.. So many and it is getting so heavy to do all this because I still love him..

The three words...

2010-09-06T22:23:00.001+08:00

Although you cannot be there for me when I need you, at least a show of support will work too. But unfortunately, I do not even get a word. I guess the overwhelming of activities ( farewells, earning $ and outings ) make you to be too occupied and is harder to remember my stuff. I am sad but I will try to understand. I don't want to start my emo-ness all over again. Hope you can realized yourself that you have forgotten... Whenever I listen to this song, i reminds me of the times dear sang me this.. It was super touching and funny... I really hope to listen to it again. Regret that I did not record it.. At least it can cheer me up in moments like this..

Another Inspiring Love story..

2010-08-27T22:49:00.003+08:00

Recently I always came across very inspiring and meaningful short stories... Here is another one..

Mr & Mrs XYZ walked into the marriage life for almost two years already. Mr. XYZ is a DSLR fan where he likes to capture the beautiful images of people around him. Even their own family portrait and wedding photo were taken by himself. Mr. XYZ loves Mrs. XYZ so much that he won't say no to all the requests from his Mrs... He tries to satisfy all her needs. Unfortunately Mrs. XYZ is someone with bad-temper and likes to throw her anger on him. No matter what, Mr. XYZ still loves her so much. One day, Mrs XYZ's best friend made a special request from Mr. XYZ to be the photographer for their wedding in the next 2 weeks time. Mr. XYZ refuse to do so because he doesn't want to. But Mrs. XYZ feels that it is such a shame and thinks that his husband is not giving face to his best friend. So, she started cold war and throwing her emotions to him everyday. One day, Mr. XYZ came back and before the wife could start another mouth war, he told her that he wants a divorce. Mrs XYZ thought he is just kidding and continue scolding him. Suddenly, Mr, XYZ took out a photo of a girl from his pocket and said " I have someone in my heart, this person is quite pretty and most importantly she is so supportive and won't force me to do anything, Why don't you have a look on her?". This time, she break out and slapped him. Mr. XYZ did not say a word but went to sleep straight. In the middle of the night, the sad and disappointed MRs. XYZ was thinking about the sweet past that they have been together and she went to his husband's side and look for th picture. She wanted to know what kind of girl that makes her marriage a total gone. She burst into tears when she saw the picture was actually herself.. She later realized how wrong she was to force her husband doing things that he doesn't want to. She gave a light kiss on the forehead of his husband and at this time, Mr. XYZ open his eyes and hug her into his arms and said, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U, DEAR!!

Love is on appreciating and accepting all the good and bad about a person. When you have decided on him/her, try your maximum best to be committed to it and love him/her...

I don't give a damn anymore...

2010-08-25T13:42:00.003+08:00

No more tears..

No more upset alone..

No more asking you to do this and that..

I will never care so much anymore..

I can still survive on my own..

I have so many people that care for me..

I won't sad anymore for people that don't know how to appreciate me..

Up to you what you wanna do..

Up to you how you treat our promises...

Coz I won't give a damn anymore..

Please don't regret...

Love's Best friend is Honesty...

2010-08-22T20:31:00.003+08:00

Hiding your true self is really something hard.. It is not something easy, at least not to me. I am those that will need to speak and burst out everything in my mind. For me, to keep quiet when I know something is not right makes me like a great sinner. I think of it all the time and it makes feel really sad and lost. I couldn't believe that this happens to me too.. I really wanted to find out the truth and be very frank to him. I know it is not a healthy thing to be dishonest to each other in a relationship. I hope he can be honest to me this time and hopefully the outcome is favourable. I really can't wait to solve it at tis minute too because I really cannot stand the pain anymore. Please don't cheat me anymore.. It hurts so much...

Lost and Found...

2010-08-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

I am lost..

I don't know what to do..

What is the right thing to do?

Afraid of taking the wrong step..

I want to follow my heart..

I guess that is what the most appropriate one..

Love and Marriage...

2010-08-18T15:53:00.003+08:00

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.... The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

And the story continues..

2010-08-15T15:29:00.004+08:00

You know how it feels when you are someone that is impatient but yet you need to wait for something always. It makes you feel that you are forever waiting. I think one day I will be immune and it might not be something good I guess...
I am happy because I thought I finally get some effort from him but actually it is just a reminder that you asked someone to do... Total disappointment..
Yesterday I heard a really inspiring theory from Peter. He says that actually all this while we have been mistreating relationship. Why we can live so happily during the not-yet relationship period, this is because we don't have a relationship at that time which will in return doesn't place much expectations on each other. So, when we get into a relationship, we will tend to set an expectations or standard for each other to achieve and when any party couldn't meet up to the expectations, then conflict will occur. So, in order to continue a relationship, we need to think it as no relationship. Treat each other like before. Got relationship= no relationship theory. Generally I agree with the theory which I think it's a new perspective of thinking about relationship but for me, if I did not place any expectations towards him, then what is his difference with other people. I think basic type of duty and action should be done.
He says he need more time, so as what I have promised myself, I will give him more time and he won't get anymore disturbance from me...
Quoted from Wai San, "Love is not finding someone to live with. It's finding someone you can't live without". I thought I found one already but I really doubt now that is he feeling the same towards me.. If he does, I don't think he still need time to think about his dream future...

A dream future without me or a simple future with my company?

2010-08-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

What do you want? It is 10 days since you replied my mail and 4 freaking days since we chatted. Or I should ask, what do I want? Why I am so desperate? People is not so worried, why are you so gan jeong.. I really hate myself for being like that. Why should I be so depress and checking out every minute to see whether he is on9 anot? Who knows he is enjoying himself so much while I am the only silly one that cares so much.. I should enjoy myself to the max coz if he does not appreciate me, then it is totally his lost... Be stronger and firmer this time...

A nice phrase that I have created few days ago,

" A dream future without me or a simple future with my company? "

Stronger..

2010-08-11T21:43:00.003+08:00

I really hate myself so much. Hate myself being too weak. I can actually live on my own. Why I can't just keep him out of my mind. I can't be any stricter. I said we will only contact after a while, every time I wanted to show him that I am angry by not contacting him, it won't last long.. Just 2days after we chatted and I feel like leaving him a comment. He promised to reply my mail since last Wed, and he is off this 2 days, but I haven't received any reply. I don't think he will reply me by today, it will be a waste only waiting for it, checking it every minute because he is now having fun with his "friends".. Who i am to him? I don't think it is really as important as I thought. I don't care who is reading this, but in fact I don't think there's reader for this dull blog. Haih.. Please be stronger la, Shermaine Chan.. It will only bring sorrow and disappointment to yourself. So please be rational la.. Accept the fact...

Decisions to leave or not?

2010-08-10T11:46:00.002+08:00

When a couple has very different thinking in their dream future, lots of unavoidable conflict will arise. Willing or not we need to face it. The saddest part is the dream future is being too practical ( logical ) or even being too sentimental.. Generally guys do the thinking and girls control the emotion. But why can't we make it balance. It is not an easy task. Coz we know the formation of guys and girls in terms of thinking is very different. Girls always think of the relationship but guys only will be too practical. Then, it is more rational that they just live their live with all the money and luxury. Is money above everything? Haih. i don't worth that much? Now waiting for the answer and I am feeling unfair because he is the one that make decision. Can't he think from my side? You can leave your family all including me? But I don't think I can be that cruel..

Missing you..

2010-08-03T21:38:00.003+08:00

I am missing you so much.. Can you think of other way to fix it? I really couldn't imagine the no communication life with you.. Feel so torturing.. Stupid line..

The Injured throat and heart

2010-08-02T12:27:00.002+08:00

Haih.. I really hate this. My throat is getting worse after Saturday night. I now can hardly talk and if I talk also the voice is so unacceptable. It is something very suffering for me, someone who likes to talk. I am having hard time to control myself and avoiding myself to talk more. This is to prevent it to getting even worse. I am drinking tonnes of water and tried my best to take care dy. I hope 2molo will be better because I need to go for another partime job briefing. Now just cross my fingers, hoping for the best.

Another thing is I really couldn't imagine a most developed country like US can tolerate with this internet service that sucks till this extend. Even the worse Streamyx here will be far better than them. Is this a test? To test my patience or the faith between us. I seriously cannot see the pros of unable to contact each other la. Stupid line... Blardy hate you... Just because I miss you..

The lovely Sick..

2010-07-28T20:31:00.002+08:00

After a long day out with Kai lee and Fung Min, I totally fall into the M'sia version of winter. Shivering cold the whole night and really bad sore throat. Having hard time to swallow my food coz it is really painful, but this also makes me realized how good i am to have my mum beside me when I am sick. She constantly remind me and wake me up in the middle of the night to take medication and drink water. haha.. Although sometimes it is bit hard to stand the long winded brag.. but she is still the best.. love u mum although i've never mentioned it in front of u...

Shops and Rewards

2010-07-25T22:42:00.004+08:00

i have a new haircut but VB said I doesn't look like I had any trim on my hair.. haha.. but overall I am ok with it la.. So kevin, a good first try.. haha.. i won't be posting the picture coz I guess it doesn't look much difference also.. I had few shopping session with friends this week and the yield was not bad. Tops that are really cute and a high waisted short too.. Looking forward to wear them all.. haha...

New attire for my blog...

2010-07-22T18:35:00.003+08:00

Another new layout for my blog. haha.. Suddenly felt like I should give my blog a new attire since I am getting one soon.. What u guys think about this? I am so indecisive, there's so many choose but i think I will change it very soon.. What about changing it every 2 days? Erm.. i doubt i am that hardworking to do so....

Shopping therapy needed

2010-07-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

Recently I need shopping therapy so badly. I am thinking of it day and night. I blog-hop to so many blogshops hoping that can find something that caught my eyes and I don't have to actually go to the shop physically to get some destress but i don't seem to get any.. The worst part is there seems to be no one free and available to accompany me.. Nearest would be this Friday, Wai Ling has no class so we are going for Sushi I guess. Oh.. I missed salmon so much. But Friday is like 4 more days from now, I think I can't wait till that. I am so desperate that I think I am gonna go alone one day. hehe.. It is free and easy to go alone after all. So not so bad.

Dear is doing fine in Yellowstone and enjoying a lot. Dear remember to take good care of yourself. And something that surprise me a lot is that they are planing to get a car in USA. haha.. I know the car there is rather cheap but it doesn't come across my mind that they will get one. But it is true that it is more convenient to have one rather to rent or relying on domestic flight. Talking about working, recently I am working Partime for a marketing research company and it is very exhausting. Nonetheless, it gives me the highest earning in the shortest period of time.

1096 days in sweetness...

2010-07-07T16:48:00.004+08:00

1096 days has passed and it is still counting. Been together with this sor2 dear for 3 years. Whole 3 years and it is hope that there's more 3 years to go. We really did lots of thing together. From going for trips, celebrating every single anni together, having dinner, going for movies, simple shopping, games, laughter, pure chatting session, massaging for each other when tired, sms-ing, chatting on phone, msn-ing, miss calling and sosoososo much more. We spent so much time together and we appreciate every single moment that we have each other beside us. Although this year we can't celebrate our 3rd Anniversary together, but I know our heart is always with each other. So will be strong and wait for dear to be back to my side. And not to forget the 10 celebrations and prezzies that he had promised me. I can't wait for it and really looking forward to it. It must be very enjoying and fun..

Love you so much my dear. Thanks for being there for me always and being patient with this naughty and stubborn dear. Appreciate it so much and missing you so much. Muacks....

Love u so much my dear.. Muacks...

Special days...

2010-07-06T00:30:00.004+08:00

Anniversaries and Birthdays has very special meaning to myself. I value them a lot but it seems completely different to the others. I am still me, the core values I believe and strongly hold is still there. They are so important to me. But some can still forget. I just dun understand. I think he has forgotten what we have promised each other on our anniversary. I am just being silly thinking that there's surprises or at least some effort for that special day.. I am being to positive thinking and expect too much... It is the 3rd anniversary which is really big thing. i have think of something but just leave it like that... Upset..

133 days to go...

2010-07-05T20:53:00.004+08:00

I am having my final paper 2molo. I really mean it, the very final piece then I am completely done with exams. But I still have a thesis to go, so I am still carrying the status of a student ( don't feel like admitting my age though ). It had been almost 20 days since dear left for USA. It had been a hard time for me as I really hate long distance stuff... Another 133days to go. But I am getting better I guess, hopefully nothing really bad will happen because this would be a very good experience for him to explore world outside Malaysia as he always wanted to, I know. I don't want to make this trip became the worst memory to him too. So will be strong and wait for him to be back to my side. But I also need supports and extra effort from him as I cannot make this works by myself. So we work hard together lo. I can't wait for the 10 celebrations after he is back. I am waiting for my prezzies too.. Remember that ar, I don't want the literal YELLOW STONE ar... Those you can give it to Wai Yeap and friends.. haha.... Hope dear is having a great time there, enjoying his life with his bunch of friends and most importantly take good care of yourself k? muacks.. Missing you so much right now. love u too..

San Fu la....

2010-07-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

I really feel wanna burst weyy... Why no matter how many times I say still don't understand. Maybe you are not me, you wouldn't understand fully what I am undergoing now... So sanfu ar.. I am like living alone and independently all by myself.. dunno la, I dunno whether it will evolve until I don't need anyone else to share my life with dy.. I really dunno....

Fortnight..

2010-06-29T21:31:00.003+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since dear left. Still remember that time at airport, I am so glad that his friend were there to at least give me some comfort. And I did not cry at all.. Looking at him leaving and disappearing from my sight for a total of 5 months, 151days. That is not an easy task. This 2 weeks was like forever.. And after so long of waiting and adapting to days without him, I realize that my adaptation indeed very bad and slow. I still feel the pain and loneliness despite the loads and tonnes of activities I make myself involved in. I miss you so much my dear. Now left with 139days to go and I hope the day will come very very soon..

Dear, take good care of yourself k?

With dear and his family

Thanks to this bunch of friends for coming..

With the 1st pair of sweet couple

The 2nd pair

Love you so much too my dear..

Dear, rmb to take care and will be waiting for u here

* dear, rmb the new promise that u said that day... But till now i did not see the changes yet.. 2 days pass dy...

Can I still bear with it?

2010-06-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

Can i still bear with it? I keep making myself packed with so many stuff ever since he left.. Am i really that busy or I just wanna avoid being alone? The loneliness at night is really horrible. Not everyone can understand.. They keep telling me that it's short, very fast one, but they wouldn't know what I need to face. I smile, I laugh, I make fun of everything, but behind the smiling face, can u see the tears? The tears that no one Un and will ever wanna care to discover.. Can I still bear with it? A good question.. but now left to see what he will do...

He left..

2010-06-16T18:25:00.003+08:00

I know I am away for some time because I spent all my time with dear.. We did so much things together and we truly enjoy it.. But this leads to another thing which we are more and more mm seh tak of each other. He left yesterday and I wouldn't care so much but to send him off... surprisingly I am stronger than I thought... I thought I will cry non stop like a baby in pain, but no single tears drop from my eyes and dear seems like having a harder time.. But this might also due to the amount of tears I've been dropping b4 that crucial day. I gain more strength from God after a god and thorough prayer. Thanks to his bunch of friends too for appearing in the airport and this might also contribute to my strongness, thanks Kermin, Evon, Chin Yaw, Fatt and Ah Yee... I am still now trying hard to adapt to the days without dear's morning and night wishes and all those naughty ideas from dear, but I know I am not trying alone.. Dear, we try our best together k? and do remember to take good care of yourself and rmb our promises... Miss u so much already... Muacks..

Will update with the pictures soon....

Back and it continues...

2010-06-04T12:21:00.002+08:00

Just back from a great trip with HIM to our usual place, Malacca. We had a two days one night non-stop eating marathon ( not to forget it is also our 3rd Anni Trip, time flies... ) And the marathon will continues till next Tuesday because we still have wedding and a fishing trip in a row. But also start count down the days that he is leaving for US. For freaking 5 months.. Really can't imagine how the days will be. But Will be stronger and waiting you to be back. But please don't forget those promises... Shall update with pictures very soon...

Happening

2010-05-18T20:45:00.008+08:00

Last week was really a very happy and busy week. Lots of outing, gathering and event took place. So this might be a long post. So do bear with my long winded writing style ya.. Will start with last Thursday. Had a short secondary schoolmates gathering taken place at Chatz Room, Rampai Business Centre. It's a simple yet enjoying yumcha session and I managed to introduce the famous Monopoly Deal to them and I'm glad they enjoyed it so much.

Wai Ling, Me, May Lee and Siew Tien

Change wai ling with Soo Chin

Group Picture without Soo Chin..

Next is the happiest day for Macy and Kelvin.. Their wedding. The ceremony was so touched. I wonder will I cry too when it's my day.. Haha.. They looked so happy and Macy is extremely beautiful and gorgeous. I am really happy for them. Actually I can be considered a witness of their marriage. From how they know each other, friends, getting together and now walking towards marriage life, indirectly I am there with them. haha... Hope their marriage is always poured with blessings from God. I only have few pictures of the wedding ceremony and dinner, so I decided to upload it together once I got them all.. So, be patient people....

Next, we had a small outing with the fellowship group. We went to Fun Taipei for bubble tea and then surprisingly followed by a Museum visit. That was really funny because we went there for the coffin exhibition. You might be shocked when you hear this. But it is true, we saw lots of different burying method from prehistory mankind till the latest religious ceremony. I think this will easier accepted by Christians where we have not much taboo or pantang about this. Below are some pictures but bear with the unpleasant background...

On front of the Exibition

We paid RM3 to take picture so we took like almost everything..

Group Picture

Am I scary?

Or he is scarier?

Then we had farewell for Tomy and Han. Shouldn't say it is farewell la coz they will back in a month or two more.. haha... I guess we are just finding excuses to have more outing and fun. At first thought of having simple lunch but end up at Neway.. hehe.. Let the picture do the talking..

Me camwhoring..

Shermaine and Han

Group Picture..

VB and I

Tomy and I

Failed camwhoring with stuffing 4 persons inside the camera phone..

Tg Sepat, the little busy town...

2010-05-10T15:41:00.004+08:00

Subject: Tanjung Sepat 2 days trip with Senior Youth Fellowship

Venue: Tg Sepat and Bagan Lalang

Date: 30/4 until 1/5 2010
Companion: 18 of us

Details: we had lots of seafood in that trip and I get to experienced for the first time catching fish with nets.. It's really tiring but enjoying...

Bagan Lalang Beach

Girls in the Room

At "Gajus" Farm

The Factory of Yam

Us before the mission of Fish Buster..

Angels around me...

2010-05-07T21:20:00.003+08:00

I found a partime job at KLCC selling HA ( Home Appliances ) for Panasonic. The paid was not too bad and the working hour is appropriate too. I can get to go to church and at the same time no need to wake so early for work. Money money money, here I come but I will only get it July. Nvmla, at least this is my asset dy. Another 2 weeks to go and after deducting all the working weekend, it's only left with 10 solid days. I know dear is very busy with his preparation with the finals but I felt his changes. Now he spend more time to sms with me dy eventhough he is studying. I felt so happy with that coz I felt that we communicate more already. I really hope this remains especially that 4 particular months...

Another thing is recently I greatly feel the mighty and loving God that is always there for me. Whenever I am in need, he is always there to prepare me solutions. I truly grateful for that. For an example, last Tuesday I need to go for an interview at Kepong and that place is like a total stranger to me. God send His little angel, VB to send me there and accompany me to find the office. That building is just like the crime or haunted house scene. You can't really find single person there beside a strange foreman that try to play a joke with us. Next, I need to go for the training at Panasonic office and to get there with public transport is so hard especially at the peak hour. I am so lucky to have Yew gor2 to send me there and kind enough to waited me for 3 hours to send me back. Thanks so much to both of them and most importantly my Dearly God that is always there to hear my prayer....

Farmville, the distress tool...

2010-04-28T08:41:00.003+08:00

It's now my exam week. And it did not stop me from FV-ing. It is so addictive. Some might say it is boring and meaningless, for me the addictiveness would be almost the same with other games. The thinking to increase level by time, by effort, by your strategic planning. I think it seriously need some form of tactics and planning in order to get the job done. It is also a way to distress. I am not that stress as my past exams. And I am not emo-ing this exam week. Thanks to FV... hehe... And another thing, my first time in my past 22years+ of life. I LATE FOR EXAM. I WOKE UP LATE!!!!! I almost can't believe my eyes that it is already 7.20am by the time I wake. And my exam is at 8... I was like, oh no.... sure die.. But thanks to the help of my dear and his dad, I managed to get there only 10minutes late. But I think I screwed out the paper too. I was too nervous and I couldn't think properly..Hopefully it is not so bad.. And I shall never repeat this nightmare again.. I have set 3 alarms for my final paper 2molo which is also 8am... I am so excited because only one more to go and then I am free again... YAY!!!!

Coastal Field Trip...

2010-04-20T23:37:00.004+08:00

Last week, I had a chance to took part in a Coastal Field Trip by Dear's university. 12 of us were there and we took up the whole tour bus for dozen of us... And we went to Port Dickson and Klang for their field trip. At first, I felt so weird because I am the only outsider there but slowly I get used to it dy... Because the bunch of companion was great. I slowly understand what they were saying and what all the course is about. haha.. Not bad one and we end up having lots of fun and thanks to dear's Honkies lecturer for the Klang Seafood Meal... The group picture is with Bryan and I'll shall post it up soon. I should be studying for finals now but I am not.. As usual me.. I have 5 papers this sem and 2 falls on this Saturday.. Hopefully I score well this time round

the bunch of great engineers

The Lecturer that dislike Facebook

Us as usual..

Us by the seaside... thanks dear for the invite...

Sick...

2010-04-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

Very sick today... It's been long since i fall down to the earth for so many days. Flu, fever, and bit of cough... I hate all this. I can't take cold food, can't take fried and oily food. I only can take food that is tasteless and not exciting at all such as bread... Boring and by looking at it also will lose appetite dy.. Adui.. Hopefully after today, I will be recovering very soon and get rid of all this stupid virus.. Gain antibiotic please... I want to go have fun and not staying at home..

Guys and Girls are just so different

2010-04-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

According to my survey around my guys friend and also lotssss of girl friends, i came to this conclusion that they will always place study above their partners and later in life job above them. So kesian rite girls? Are we really so not worth their care and love. We are really so unimportant to them? Maybe partner can be found everywhere but to fulfill their own satisfaction and achievement is something valueable. This two sexes that God has created is not only differ in numbers of bone in their body but most drastic differences is their thinking. What a girl perceive as important, the guy would never get to understand. They will just think things case by case. Resolving things one by one. But they just could not understand the core problems that they always ignore. For an example, a guy late for date, they will think that it is just late, but for girls how you handle the late and why you late very closely related to how important is that girl in your heart.

Guys always like to say, I din do that this and that doesn't mean that I don't love you. You all are wrong. What girls value is the core value. But I know guys sure couldn't figure out a single thing from what I wrote coz you guys will never consider all this. Then, you all will blame the girl for making small matter big, but have you ever self evaluate yourself, that this small matter actuallymeans a lot to a girl and directly hurt a girl's feeling. You would not know this small matter would lead to bigger crack in your relationship. You guys would only look at the shallow and surface problem but girls looking at the core and in depth things which guys will never ever appreciate.

Haih.. Why are these tow species so different. If it is not, then the world would be better.....

Stress...

2010-04-07T19:38:00.003+08:00

I am so stressed out but I don't anyone will understand even the closest one.. What I have done is out of my willingness so I can't blame anyone. And i shouldn't be grudging for people not doing the same to me. Different people have different thinking and I am not the king of the world. I shouldn't be too demanding, to ask people to must act out what I want. Really san fu in dealing with all this.. When you are so stressed out, wanted to find someone to talk to, there's no single 1 dat is available for you.. That is so sad right? not even the closest person will do. But what to do, you can't expect people to be 24hours by your side and fulfilling all your needs and wants. I know by switching the presentation, I need to bear more bad consequences than good one, but I think it's worth it. But thinking of i'm not being treated like that, really heart broken lo. Is that really that hard? I just want to spend more time with you, but I am always behind so many things. Your activity, families, studies and even your cars. When is my turn? 2months left and after deducted from your family's time, studies, and friends', then what left for me? I really got so many things in mind. But I know I am old enough to handle things by my own...

I have 3 presentations and 6 pages of design.. And next week need to hand in 1 assignment and report earlier just because of the trip.... STRESSSSS

Alright

2010-04-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

I guess everything is alright now.. Yay.. The moon also looks brighter... Another announcement to be made, I am officially poisoned by Farmville.. I need to be a very professional farmer.. Call me Shermaine the CEO of a farm please..

Can You Be Changed?

2010-03-28T22:56:00.006+08:00

I always in this saying, when a good child make a mistake, people will react like the child is the biggest sinner of all time but in the opposite end, when a very naughty kid did a small good thing, the whole country will parade for him/her.. This same happens to me, when you show very good image in front of some people, when there's something wrong going on, the blame is always on you like you actually commit murdery. But when someone who is always being portrayed as the bad guy, the blame is also on you.. Really susah la.. Patience is almost towards the end dy but as whatthe bible has taught us, forgive, forgive and forgive. That is actually another way to brushes up my patience where I know I will certainly face this kind of people when I get into the working world. But this person really special, he is getting worse by time. I don't think what he does and behave compatible with his age. He should be doing much better at a younger age or at least behave slightly normal. I really worried that his overreacting will put down someone one day. What should we do? I know, the ultimate way is also to pray. No matter what, we need to back to seek God's guidance....

* Don't try to guess coz I am just bursting out my feelings here.. A tool for me to distress coz talking bad bout people still not so good ( learning on that )

Hot Air Balloon Fiesta 2010'

2010-03-23T18:46:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, Dear and I went to the Hot Air Balloon Fiesta as planned. We woke up very early and drive all the way to Putrajaya just to witness the giant air balloon.. But not all things will go well as what you have imagined. Due to some circumstances, the camera die out of battery after surviving the first 15 min of capturing the beauty of the bally. So we ended up taking more pictures with my 5.0MP camera phone which I don't really like the colour. But thanks to the invention of Photoshop and Photo editing software where I can adjust the colour to a better one.. We did not get to ride on because the timing just isn't right but overall we had fun there... Below are some of the pictures that we took that day...

A little far from them. Note the levi's balloon..

Dear with his friend..

us...

Dear posing confidently..

This looks better

Happy Dear

I like the blue background

Happily taking picture with them..

Another one

I like this balloon. Although without lots of design but this is the most original and happy looking one...

Dear also look xtra happy with this balloon.

Camwhoring- Take 1

Take 2

Sunkist- thirst quenching

Finally they get to fly off to the blue sky

This would be picture of the day.. just simply like the formation of it..

Exhausted mentally and physically...

2010-03-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

Had a great camp and a great fight... Will blog about it very soon... Stay tuned... I'm darn super tired and exhausted.. The importance of myself.. Actually we should not overestimate yourself.. It will ended up having big time of disappointment. Please put yourself in the shoe of other people to feel it.. Yes, I am trying...

Hot Air Balloon..

2010-03-17T21:31:00.004+08:00

Hot Air Balloon - I personally has no any experience and contact with one yet. And I'm so looking forward to the 2ND Hot Air Balloon Fiesta this Friday. My first attempt to get near to these beautiful and joyful looking little bally that fly in the blue sky. Hot Air Balloon to me symbolizes the happiness and freedom especially with the blue background. I think I will turn all my worries and sadness into joy and smiles when looking at it. I can see only the whole new bright side of the whole panorama... They also reminds me of the song " A Whole New World". Oh.. I can't wait to experience and meet them in personal soon.. Am I a bit exaggerated? You might be saying " It's just balloon though" but that's me... I loike it... LOL. Will take lots and lots picture to share with you all soon..... Can't wait...

Wishlist....

2010-03-16T17:57:00.004+08:00

I should be studying for my darn Film quiz now but end up day dreaming. Today I came across a classmate that brought a Classic Signature Gucci tote to university. It is amazingly nice la.. I am never a designer brand person but this tote seriously caught my attention and it is just so versatile that it goes well with any kind of outfits.. I want 1 please...

I like this one the most but I can't seems to find the model of this tote...

Or this one also not too bad,,

This is one of the spring/summer collection

This would be my second choice...

And I came across this lovely purse from Coach while googling on the tote.. Nice one..

And seriously, I think I need a new laptop and be more precise, I need a new pink laptop...

Now I shall go eat first before start burning midnight oil... So sleepy dy when I think of that..

Patients preceeds unity...

2010-03-14T21:12:00.004+08:00

I just can't understand why on earth there's this kind of leader? Want to be leader and it undeniable that he has the quality but that is not the only criteria. I would say being responsible is indeed a more important criteria. Be responsible in things you do, performing your duty accordingly and please most importantly being a someone that can control yourself verbally. Some of the words just being too silly to come out from a mouth of a leader which already reach the age of maturity. Sometimes it is really a very challenging thing to work with someone like that. What I can do now is to be patient and hopefully he can have greater learning from this coming task.. God bless everyone...

It's just because she loves you...

2010-03-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

Actually many guys did not realised, the fact that after girls putting out their temper, when they turn their back, they will cry like mad.

Actually many guys did not realised, girls don't really will mad at them, they just want their boy to care more for them.

Actually many guys did not know, girls will only nag when with their loved ones. They will only being very emo to the one they love.

You must know that if they don't love you, they won't even bother whether you care for them or not.

You need to know, if she does not love you, he won't throw her temper on you to make you pujuk her and pamper her. In front of other people, she is always someone very good and polite.

You need to know, if she does not love you, you would not have the ability to make her drop her tears, she won't mad at something more than 2 days. It's all due to a simple fact that she loves you. And this is also because you did not give enough care and concern to her. You did not understand her well. As a result, lots of argument occurred. Then, you will think that she is bad tempered. Then she will think you as not considerate enough. Cold war follows. You thought that she doesn't like you anymore. She thinks that you don't care for her anymore

In the end, you both treat each other as strangers. Maybe you might came across each other but as a stranger. It is a tragedy overall.

Because she loves you, she will sometimes throw temper at you, wants your pamper all the time.

Because she loves you, that's why she mad at you

Because she loves you, she won't bring the temper overnight

You should know, every girl is made up of crystal. Crystal is so fragile. You came into her heart so easily but left with injuries.

She never knew that there's someone that can make her cry. Because the person who deserved the tears would not let her cry. She might be cold, proud, persistent. She always ask you to go away, but in the heart ask you to stay.

Please open your ears, heart and listen to her real shout out. You can't see her tears. If you really love her, Please put her into your arms, love her more, pamper her more. We often see hurting each other in relationship. But what we need is warmness, sweetness and love and not hurt.

What she need is just your pamper, a kiss, a hug and your love...

* Appreciate your loved ones because there won't be second chance once you break the fragile crystal as girls really mean it if they are totally disappointed on you...

*Credited to Belle

Questions inside me..

2010-03-10T20:42:00.005+08:00

Recently I can't stop emo-ing... Is the old back of mine came haunting me again? Or the insecurity coming back to follow me? Or it is just because the old HIM is coming back. I always think this and that, so many questions inside me. i don't feel like seeking the answer because I don't think he will understand. I just can't understand is it so hard to say something better, is it so hard to give me more time, what so bz? Is it so hard to just reply me in faster speed. Maybe I just don't understand but you can't blame me. You are so far and the only communication tool is by sms. Call is only during cold war time.. Am I demanding too much? Is an average of 3,4 sms per day healthy for a couple that only see each other during weekend? I just don't understand.. I think part of insomnia due to this.. Shermaine Chan, can you just stop thinking of nonsense?? I'm so sorry for those who are annoyed reading my blog but I just need to find a place to burst out all my internal feelings...

Really that busy?

2010-03-09T20:59:00.004+08:00

I can't understand why is it so hard just to send me a message to let me know.. U saw the message and miss call but not doing anything? Do you know how worried I am at that time.. Miss called for 3 different times but there's no response? Really that busy until no time for anything? Just called and say sorry then that's it? Not even sending me another message to make sure I'm ok? What is this? I really dun understand...

Describe me

2010-03-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

I was wondering how people view and see me.. So YOU who are reading this post. Please tell me in three to five words, how you view me k? I would love to discover more about how I am in your eyes.... This is just for fun, use your imagination people.. Don't be so boring...

Insomnia

2010-02-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

Recently I can't sleep. I don't know why. Insomnia haunting me for the first time. It's really annoying and suffering especially when you know you need to wake the next day. No matter how tired I am nor how hard I try, it is still the same. What to do?? Can anyone help me?? BTW, today is Chinese Valentine's Day. Happy Chinese Valentine's Day dear. Thanks for everything and had a great time together although it's short. Muacks...

31st Anniversary and Valentine's Celebration

2010-02-23T19:49:00.005+08:00

Our 31st anniversary is not a short period of time. This is equivalent to 2 years and 7 months. We are very near to 3 years anni... I know we can go through it and many many more anniversary to be celebrated. This anni was a replacement because we can't celebrate it at the exact day. We just want to make it simple so we decided to have a dinner picnic at KLCC park. And to avoid all the hassle, we went to Isetan Supermarket to get all the food. We end up buying so much that we can't even finish eating half of it. As usual, pictures speak their own story.

A picture of us before start eating

All the food... It was all 50% off when it comes to dinner.

Another one after food... Satisfied

We can't celebrate anni on the exact day, this same happens to our Valentine's Day. I think this year is bit hard for couples because CNY also falls into the same day. But nvm, when we are with the right person, everyday can be Valentine's Day. This time we decided to cook our 3 course meal at home. Early in the morning we start to do d groceries and then we took up like 2hrs + to complete preparing the food. Although it's very tiring but we do enjoy the whole process and of course the end product. Thanks so much dear for the top and I like it so much. Thanks for all that you have done, times where I am don't deserve love, times when you feel sad but I'm not understanding enough and most importantly times that you are there for me... Muacks.. Love you my dear... And glad that you like the gift...

Our Appetizer: Fried Asparagus, baby carrot, corn and golden mushroom

Our main dish: Orangy Toman Fillet with cinnamon

Dessert: Baby Tiramisu

Our set of meal. Bento 3-course meal...

Prezzies from me to dear...

Pictures with Mickey, Minnie and our new HP Pouches

Posing with our food...

When a kid turn into a young adult

2010-02-22T12:37:00.003+08:00

Cny used to mean a lot to me... I would say it is getting weaker by years. I mean I always can't wait for CNY as a kid. But now I would only look forward to it's angpau receiving and family reunion time. The rest like getting new clothes, having gotong-royong, eating festive food- most of it can already be done at times other than CNY. THe days where we used to go from houses to houses to collect angpau and to play fire crackers with friends has totally out of sight. Far from what can be done now. Maybe as age climbing up the stairs, changes can be ignored. We need to accept and forcefully conform to it. From the more positive view, we can try to adapt and make slight changes into what we can do now... Haha... Don't be so negative. CNY is meant to mean something important anyway. Just depend on how we view and interpret it. So people, appreciate it and bear in mind that we won't really have a lot CNY to go. Treasure each and every one of it with a cheer and hope..... Have a blessed CNY everyone..

* Shall blog about my CNY photos soon...

CNY Brosis Gathering..

2010-02-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

Happy CNY everyone... Two days ago, Brosis went to have our annual dinner ( Konon ). WE had our Yee Sang and CNY dinner at New Paris, PJ. Then we continue roaring our CNY celebrations to Kepong Dessert Shop ( Tim Ban GOGO ). The foos at New Paris was not bad but the dessert at TBGG was so so only. But we had great time together. Laughing, keep updating, chit-chatting, water blowing.... The best thing is Joyce came along and we have full attendance which is something unusual to us... Haha.. Another thing is we got a free Pirated Victoria Secret Fashion Show DVD from the dessert shop... Note that is definitely the guys idea to choose that DVD.....

Our Yee Sang

The great looking and tasting food...

Dear and me at New Paris

The camwhore Queen and me..

Group Picture 1

Group Picture 2

The best shot of the day ( Note Mal's hand )

Look at the camwhore queen and HC's satisfaction after getting the VS's DVD

Even the Sky is Falling Down?

2010-02-09T23:07:00.001+08:00

Down by Jay Sean featuring Lil Wayne

Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, down
Ooh (ohhh)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

(Bridge)

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

LiL Wayne
(Verse 3)
Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,
now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,
On the battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sending arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,
and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh
(Bridge)

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

(So why don’t we run away)

(Chorus)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

* Recently like this song so much.. Because of the chorus i guess...

Broga Hill Expenditure

2010-02-03T14:29:00.007+08:00

Please look at the pictures below... You might be wondering where is these places are? Europe? US? Russia? Nope, Nope, you all are wrong. These pictures are taken from no other than our beloved Malaysia. To be more precise, Broga Hill, Semenyih. It is beyond expectations that it appears to be so beautiful viewing in screen. Below are some of the beautiful scenery we managed to caught during the Broga Hill Expenditure.

I went there with dear and a bunch of his funny yet friendly house mates. So Sorry for delaying the whole trip due to my lack of stamina that morning. Anyway, we still do have fun and camwhore as usual.... Enjoy our craziness and youthful...

The spotlight of the day....

House no #9, funny pose

The girls...

A not so clear group Picture

But of course not all group picture only. Dear and me will also take lots nice nice picture as remembrance...

I like this picture a lot..

If you guys noticed, dear is the shadow

ANother one..

We do camwhore in room too..

Taking picture with Mickey, Minnie and all our new members..

Had a great time there...

Thanks to dear for inviting and the lovely housemates that always there to welcome me... hehe.. I shall be back. So do stay tuned...

So cute..

Food Makes us feel Guilty

2010-01-31T21:40:00.007+08:00

Had an awesome shabu shabu buffet at Puchong.. Not too bad la the food there. Kinda new experience. Extremely full man.. It's long since I ate so much food. Stuffing so much food into my stomach makes the level of guiltiness raises up to the max....

Yesterday was a very complex day. I had so much feelings.. Extreme happy, sad, angry, in love and etc... All in one day. Felt like there's a stock market graph inside me. Mixture of feelings. I finally found out and get to face a thing that I've been avoiding all this while or to be more accurate something that we are avoiding. Thanks to his housemate to reveal it accidentally. Don't really know should I thanks them or not. Contradict... I felt like he didn't make any wrong decisions but at the same time I'm in an extreme anger conditions. Why girls so self contradict ar? I know and understand this is something good for him, but at the same time I don't hope him to go but how? Only4 months only, and I know I can go through it because of the FAITH.. And I shall be stronger after overcoming all these.....

Shopping is evil

2010-01-21T20:40:00.005+08:00

I can totally get into the saying of Shopping is Evil. It is something really tempting and not those who fall into the trap can't really coming out from it easily. You are now fighting with stimuli and your internal ME. Stimuli refers to things like occasions where you need to get dressed up, sales where you can get an item with just a fraction of the price, influences from shopping companion and sales person, and many many more. Another big temptations is when you have money. You feel like using it and getting more and more new clothes. Forever your wardrobe has not enough clothes to wear although you can actually open up your own boutique with the amount of clothes you have now. It is the inner self that is been in war all the time to think rationally when you are exposed to these stimuli and other external factors.

Happy Birthday Zhi En

Today is my dear little niece, Zhi En's 1 yr old birthday. She's really an adorable kid that never fails to make us smile. A year past and she is growing day by day. Time flies. I always think that time can be our asset and enemies at the same time. The double-edge thing. We are growing and aging at the same time...

My Yari....

2010-01-20T22:38:00.004+08:00

I finally got my new phone.. Let us welcome Sony Ericsson Yari. She's red and black slide phone. 5 Mega pixel camera phone which is very useful for me for the obvious reason, I do not own a camera... The camera was surprisingly good with smile shutter and face detection. That was something amazing for a normal camera phone. Haha.. Finally I can use a new phone after losing mine in HELP last October. I can return the phone to my mum now... Yay... Hope the curse of losing phone doesn't follows me anymore. I promise myself to use it for at least 1 full year... pls...All the snatch thieves, pls go away... And ya, I'm now quite confirm with my time table. 4 days of class with 6 subjects. Oh crap, this is something not a normal homosapiens will do. But I would like to challenge the impossible and make it possible. Another thing is I seriously need a partime intern job. Anyone can offer me one? I will really appreciate it....

6 subjects?

2010-01-18T22:05:00.003+08:00

Can I endure the 6 subjects semester? I doubt it at first but I'll try to face it positively.. And anyone can offer me a partime internship?? I really need to complete it before April.. This intern thing is such a headache for me..

Contradictory

2010-01-12T22:14:00.003+08:00

Had a great time shopping. It's been long since I really do shopping without restricting myself. That feeling is like letting go a long captured bird... Fly it goes... Thx Sing Li for the company. Had a great time and some girly talk. And realized girls actually have very similar thinking about guys or it's just us because we grew up in very similar environment. And from the conversation, I feel glad that I'm not the only one that care about that. Girls are sensitive and contradict. Knowing that it will hurts but we still dig a hole for ourselves to fall into it. But I tell you, guys is even worse. Telling us to take care and don't want us to diet, loving how we are but actually you guys to care a lot. Appearance is a major factor when you choose your partner. Think hard, it is embedded in your inner self. So do face the reality. Another thing that I think the world should be concerning is the gender biases that are spreading all around the world. Why there are privileges that only guys enjoy? That is so unfair... I'm so sorry if I offense anyone. It is just some personal opinions and thoughts I suddenly came across. I wanted to promise myself not to do that again.. That will only hurt myself and I'm shouldn't be that silly to be heart aching because of this...

The Most Beautiful Day in her life...

2010-01-11T14:31:00.005+08:00

I'm so excited to actually attend a peer's wedding and it's a Malay wedding which is my very first time there.. Congrats Aifa and thanks for the invitation.. She's looking good that day not only because of the beautiful clothes and accessories, it's because of the happiness she possesses now.. I'm so happy for you and the sweet little couple is just too sweet to be described... Hope all the best for you...

Me, The Newly Wed Couple, Ja and Sara

Ja, me, Luc and Sara

Luc with the Couple

Me and Ja

Share Darkness...

The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus

2010-01-08T22:15:00.004+08:00

Today went for a movie with Sing Li but end up watching it 3 persons. I've brought Raj with us.. It's kinda fate that they get to know each other. WE had a great time chit-chatting and a small session of camwhoring. Back to the movie, some might not even heard of it.. It cracks my head thinking of a verb to describe the movie. It is so called a movie by Sing Li's fav, Mr Dirty Muddyn Johny Depp but he only appears less than 10 minutes of the overall movie... OMG...

The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus

Sing Li and I

At A & W

Raj trying to pose...

The newly met friends..

The very old mates

Holiday Part 1

2010-01-08T21:47:00.010+08:00

As promised, this is a post about my holiday. Too much to say about it. So I'll try to make it simple to the max to ease the burden of readers or just to hide my laziness.. Let us make it one by one...

1. Thailand Missionary Trip

Date: 19th till 25th of Nov 2009

Venue: Chiang Mai, Northern Thailand

Details: Priceless and Memorable Experience

Camwhore at the truck

A group picture

Taking Picture with the students there

They are so kind by performing to welcome us

Another group picture with our Bright Orange Uniform

2. My Birthday Celebrations...

Date: 11th till 13th of Dec 2009

Venue: Sentul, Times Square, Old Town, Bukit Tinggi

Details: Had a great time with my dear family, dearly dear2, lovable friends... Thx for everything.Really enjoy it a lot...

Having Birthday dinner with the family

Us at Times Square

Having lunch at Bukit Tinggi

A huge Bear

Us at the wishing well.. The environment was so romantic at night

I like the greenery of the picture

The adorable cake that dear make me..Yummy

3. Hong Kong Trip

Date: 15th till 19th of Dec 2009

Venue: Hong Kong

Details: The weather there is freaking cold and the people there is to busy to stop

At the Bruce Lee statue

In front of Ocean Park ( Note the tour guide behind me )

In Disneyland

Another group picture

Me at HK Airport

Eugene and me at the restaurant for Dim Sum

To be continued.....

New Year Resolution

2010-01-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

What am I doing recently? Demanding too much and thinking too imaginatively.. Why should I mind all that when you know that where His heart is now.. Ok,

New Year Resolution:

1. Give more and Demand less

2. Try not to think of the past dy

3. Blog about my long and busy holiday.

4. Complete my Internship

5. Do whatever I need to do and avoid everything that I shouln't touch at all

Promise myself that I can do this please... The list might be updated from time to time...

Halloween Massacre Night

2009-11-10T20:36:00.010+08:00

Oopss.. I just realised I totally forgot to blog about our awesome Halloween Massacre Night. For those who don't know, it is an event organized by MMS and IPRMSA. We did have fun that night and as usual we camwhore a lot that night... Congrats to all winner of HMN King, HMN Queen, Scariest, Funniest, Best Performing Band, and many more... And to all committee, good job and nice working with you guys.. And my style of blogging, little words wit lots of picture ( lazy people like me like to let the picture do the telling part.. Enjoy..

Us before the transformation...

Tada...

Shermaine the Cow girl of the day...

Sara and Belle the rockstar, me the Cowgirl, Amira the sexy dr. and Ja the pirate..

More picture of us...

The Cool Share Darkness...

Jess the greek goddess and us..

Me with the Corpse Bride and the cute Red Riding Hood

With Thinesh and Luc

Aliyah, Jo and Andy..

Scary...

Charissa, me and Ja

Ja, me and AGP the Priest

Me with Noelle

Sara's Cool Friends

Ja, Niqi and me

The HMN Queen 2009

Competing for the HMN Queen 2009...

Overall, it is a good one. It worth all the tiring and effort... We enjoy it lots... MMS ROCKS!!!!!

Time and me

2009-10-27T17:41:00.005+08:00

I am really really broke.
2molo is the Halloween Massacre Night.
I am lazy recently.
2molo need to stay at Uni till quite late.
I am studying the book of Matthew.
Yesterday i din go for class.
I must admit I am a mild Shopaholic.
3 weeks from now, I'm going to Northern Thai.
I am not ready yet, physically and mentally.
Last week, I say bye2 to my W595.
I still using my mum's old phone.

Time and me,
Similarities: So unpredictable
Differences: Time flies but I only walk...

I lost my phone

2009-10-22T19:02:00.004+08:00

Haih.. Today wasn't a good day for me.. My beloved W595 was stolen by some itchy and dirty handed people.. I did not expect this to happen at these times. I am so broke and why why why?? And all of us felt so amazed with how the thief actually work. We were all sitting around there but no one noticed any strangers or so coming near to us.. Okla, whatever it is.. It should be a lesson for me to learn especially after kena lecture from mum a bit.. Should I use my old phone? or get a 2nd hand for temporary usage or get an IPhone? Broke Broke Broke..

BTW, I got back my Sim card. So anyone reading this, please send me a msg so that I can get your contacts. Don't scold me, I know I din back up..

Buying Behaviour

2009-10-13T20:37:00.003+08:00

Relieved... Just submitted my Consumer Behaviour individual paper to Turnitin.com. It is a good assignment I would say because it actually makes me think as a consumer. Gain insight completing this assignment. I started to think why I purchase certain products but not the other. Am I going for the quality? The pricing? To get approval from the society or a sense of belongings to a group? Haha.. Interesting topic to think of.. We conscious and unconciously will influenced by internal and external factors.

Everyone has their own buying behaviour and intentions behind it that drive the decision making process and we need to find out so that we can better control our mind rather than being controlled by the marketer--> especially Marketing Communication Major..

I wrote on why I choose Maxis Broadband, like to shop at Forever 21 and support certain events. I have never sit down and think thoroughly in the past for things like that. So, this is a mind triggering exercise which I think consumers today should practise to avoid any misleading by the media world...

Yesterday and Today

2009-10-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

I am lost few days ago.

But I am happy and felt loved today.

I felt confused recently.

But I am glad I still can think today.

I felt so insecure last week

But I felt so contended today.

I don't know what will happen in the future.

But I am still firm with my decisions.

I can't guarantee anything.

But I hope the best for us.

I am cheerful and optimistic but I am a human after all.
I can be very capable but I do make mistake.
I might be careless but I do appreciate it.
I might be very annoying but that is from my heart.
I might not be lovely at all but I truly love you..

Brain Damaged

2009-10-05T22:17:00.001+08:00

Recently my brain is full of useless stuff.. Kinda disturbed by all that but I know it's just temporary... No problem 1..

Felt so loved..

2009-09-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

The end of another happy holiday.. Felt so contended just because I'm happy. Sometimes it shouldn't be very complicated for us to be grateful. Every breath we take in, every single morning that we can open our eyes should be something we thanks for. I'm happy because there's lots of people I love and more people that give me their precious love. I felt thankful for them. They did not ask for reply for that. Shouldn't take things for granted.

Yesterday night, I heard something that did little bit of brain triggering on me. A sister did share something to us. She said that when you felt that there is some part of the people surrounding you where they actually had habits or attitudes that makes you out of mind, you can actually look from other perspective where are we the person that should change? Or do we need to do little of edit here and there in our whole brain structure??

Love Rekindled Trip

2009-09-14T16:54:00.007+08:00

We always believe that a short getaway will make relationship better like taking a new breath into it. So before dear start class, we went to for a short yet enjoying trip to Genting. This time we stay at Genting Awana which this was my first time there. Early in the morning, we took our breakfast and start our happy journey by taking the Genting Express Bus. We reached there around 11am. We went walk around and as usual the camwhore session. We spend so much time together happily without realizing the time flies like nobody business.. We talk, we laugh and we even play around the place acting like a kid. Although lots of small things happen but we managed to overcome it together and I meant it, it's together without blaming each other. That is what we called fun and quality time. Below are some of the pictures to witness our happiness. It's 26months dy and hope it will be like that forever..

OTW there ( On bus n Skyway )

Me in the trip..

Dear in the trip

Us at 1st world

And throughout this trip, we found out a new Vietnam restaurant there. It was quite nice and affordable I would say. I would strongly recommend to those who like to try out new things just like us. We camwhore there as usual.

Vietnam food for lunch

Pictures of us at Awana

We then had Korean Food at Awana Genting for dinner. The kimchi soup was so-so but dear's beef soup was great. Not so satisfy at last because we can't get to collect World Card points in this restaurant.. Grrgh...

Later after lunch and the next day morning, we walked around Awana and getting involved in the Shermaine-Malcolm war of Arcade. haha.. We had a great time laughing there..

Had some pastry and dessert for lunch.. Yum yum...

After check out, we went back to Genting Hill to continue camwhore

More Pictures of us..

Last but not least, thx dear for the nice purse from Aussie. Loving it...

The Media and Culture

2009-09-04T18:35:00.002+08:00

Boys and girls, males and females, I heard lots of depictions about it. Venus vs Mars, Cats vs Dogs, and lots more. What makes us so different besides the extra Y in the guys genetic. But actually it does differ dramatically from one another. Apart from the genetic part, I would say the main contributor to the situations now are culture and media. We can't escape from the influence of both things I'd mentioned. We always told to do certain things and perform in certain way. When we think it in another perspective, why can't guys wear pink and play with Barbie Dolls and why can't a girl speak loudly in the public and not wearing any skirts their entire life. Who shape our thinking and way of looking at things? Again, the media and our culture. When we think of how your parents tell you that you should sit a certain way because you are a girl.. Television showing how man a guy is when they are bold enough to take revenge for his loved ones.. When advertisement we exposed to tell us pink is for girls and blue is for guys... In other way, we are actually being manipulated by them all this while. We grown up thinking that this is the fact but who determine what is the fact and what is wrong? I learned a lot of this in my course especially Anthropology but yet I can't deny that I can't escape from it although I'm aware. Maybe we are too used to it dy, so it's rather hard for us to actually totally escape from it but to ignore it. That's human, often we don't things that we know. We know there should be fairness first before unity but yet we IGNORE. We know that smoking and drinking is bad for health and yet we can't RESIST the temptations. We know we should not be playing with relationship but we see the divorce rate is skyrocketing.. Haih.. The IGNORANT of human..

Shall be continued soon...

Disaster

2009-08-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

Today my first day of class. I'm officially a 3rd year student. The time flies so quickly. A 5 days of class is already quite torturing to me but it is actually a 5days of 8am class. Gosh.. I need to wake up in the dark everyday. Oh no.. It is yet to come to the worst part, 3/5 days of the week, I'm having only a class which means only 8am to 10am or sometimes 8.30am till 10am. Don't you think this kind of system just too time and $$ wasting? What to do? I just realized something, I keep repeating the same grudge every beginning of the semester. It's all HELP's fault.. Blerr.. Nvm, I'm soon leaving this place.. Am I too early for that? hehe..

BTW, I'm happy because I did not fail my PR method. The nightmare last sem.. I even not getting a C but B-. That's fair enough because I almost gave up on this subject but by the end, I tried my best to study... And to clarify, I had that thinking not because of the subject but of the LECTURER that I really can't find anything that I can agree with her on.. Sorry and Thanks, BYE.. Hopefully that is the first try and the LAST one..

And I'm worry now, coz my throat keep itching the whole day ( cough? ), and I had sinus this morning ( flu? ) and I feel bit2 tired.. Please, that stupid disastrous virus to go far far away from me and people around me. No, no.. No room for you.. Hope this won't affect the Thailand missionary trip

The Reflection behind Birthday

2009-08-19T21:07:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I wanna say Happy Birthday to my dearest 2nd sis. Today is her bigday.. Early in the morning, we went out had dim sum for breakfast. In the journey there, I had some inspiration from my sis about the other side of looking at birthday. We always think of how to celebrate our birthday, what present we want, what we want to wish for and all sorts of celebration to make yourself the happiest people on that 24 hours time. But did we ever try to think the suffer and pain that our mum had to bear during this "bigday- on the day that you are born? I think it is a good day besides Mother's Day to nicely thanks our mum for bearing such a big pain that can't be describe with words just to bring us to this world. Haha.. They did so much for us and yet we only think of having fun ourselves with friends during our bigday. hehe.. Next time, we should really think of ways to feel grateful and don't take things for granted. Another thing is We should also feel grateful and place our highest thanks to our Almighty God for letting us the chance to see this world and gave us such a good mum and dad to take care for us..

* Last but not least, Happy Birthday again my dearest sis.. Hope blessings poured abundantly to you and your family...

Little bit of everything

2009-08-17T22:58:00.004+08:00

H1N1 had been a hot topic recently. You can see the news of it everywhere from mainstream media to little brochure distributed at train station. I started to feel the impact and danger of it. I can see some people wearing mask and washing hands much more often than usual. The threat of it was forcing us to do something. I really hope this stupid disease can get buried by the strong determination of human beings. We won't be shoot down by this small little threat right,people?

Another thing that I realised is this is actually the month of independence. It is so low profile this year that I almost forget about it. Maybe it is also because of the unstable political status, the disease and also not to forget the disaster at Taiwan. Pity people around the world need to adapt themselves a lot these few years. SARS, 911, 912, recessions, Taiwan disaster, H1N1, Tsunami, SzeChuan Earthquake, on-going civil war, and many unstable political problems. But this also initiates that God's coming is getting nearer.

Actually I already bumped myself at home for more than a month time. You might say i did nothing, wasting time. But when I think deep into my thought, I realised I've actually done lots of small2 little things, and I'm thankful for what I have. BTW, dear is now in Aussie having his holiday. I've told him that he need to quarantine himself after back from there next week. Is that cruel? But it is to make my family and other people not to worry. Apart of being caring to both of us, we need to take care of the feeling and safety of others. Hope dear will be OK la..

Last but not least, another week till my class starts. OMG, I tell you my time table sucks again. What to do, that is our beloved HELP. haih.. And for those who still confuse about my blog skin, I'm so sorry. I'm just too lazy to do anything about it. haha.. Yup, slap me for my lazinesss but I might just continue being myself...

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2009-08-07T21:56:00.003+08:00

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I heard it only happens every 1 thousand year.. I don't know how true it is and I know for certain people it doesn't represents anything but we did celebrate it together by having a simple yet satisfying lunch.. haha.. Today I went all the way to OU, I think it takes up like 1 hr + and a total of RM 20 of transport fees. But I know all this worth all the effort. We had a short lunch at Gardens. I really like the environment but the food there i would say deserve a 6/10. After lunch I need to wait for another 4.5 hr for him to fetch him after work but luckily my little buddy, Vyebe willing to come all the way there to teman me.. Thx babe.. We walked around trying on clothes for few hours but it doesn't seems enough for us.. We only managed to get into few shops such as Forever 21, Topshop, FOS and few little shops. Oh gosh.. But another good thing is I am miraculously self-control by being empty-handed by the end of the day... YAy!!!!! Congratulations to Sher... I know you can do it.. Will be uploading the pictures soon...

Food Hunting+ Anniversary

2009-07-19T19:21:00.010+08:00

The major activities in these few weeks are mostly food hunting and "lepak-ing" at home. Not much word but pictures alone can surely make your stomach thunder-growling. Enjoy..

New York New York Deli

The little Black Book

The BIG Breakfast

The Sinful Chocolate Mudpie

Happy Season Cafe

The Winter Section

The Lamb Soup

Seafood Spaghetti

The Fall Section

The Seafood Stone Rice

Cheese Baked Mushroom

Mocha Ice Blended

Another picture of us..

Ichiban Ramen

The fruit for our meal

The Katsu Don Set

The Green Apple Drink

The Spicy Ramen

The Snack House

Me & dear

Sago Dessert

Durian Pancake

Next is celebration of our 2nd Anniversary. We went for dinner and also a short yet fun trip. Below are the pictures of it..

Food hunting continues..

"I can't rmb the name of the restaurant"

Beef Bibimbab

Sizzling Beef Set

Portuguese Meal at Portuguese Settlement

Picture there..

Jonker Street

Full House, Niu Che Shui

Lifestyle Store and Cafe

Petit Six ( Little Cute Dessert )

Fruity Tutti Dory Fish

Black Pepper Chicken Chop

Oh no.. It's full of eating, sure gain weight dy.. But I'm going for interview 2molo ( INtern purposes). Hopefully workload can help me solve this.. Hehe..

M.E.S. Closet Sneak Preview

2009-07-14T17:36:00.002+08:00

M.E.S. Closet will be updating with Ruffles Jumpsuit, Embroidery Top, Shorts, Belt and Two-toned Dress. And we will be having clearance sales for our previous batch. So do check us out soon for the best bargain and latest fashion.

*I'll be updating soon about the food review.