$ is everything..

What I want is just some effort? Am I asking too much? I know I should have be more understanding but I also need people to understand and see things inside my shoes. Ya, $ is always more important, even me...

Am sick again physically and mentally..

Just back from Genting Highland with dear, Dang, Soo Chin and Amos. Still remember how 11 of us went there and had a real good trip and now left with five of us here visiting the same place. The worst thing is me and dear fall sick so badly there. Flu and fever isn't feeling that good at Genting because it is way too cold to be bear by two patients.

Sometimes I feel it kinda san fu because I couldn't differentiate whether it is really from the heart, pretending or actually it's just a sense of responsibility. This makes me feeling insecure again. hi to my old dear friend..

I had few chances to actually view those things but I choose not to. Not because I am really that saint but what if I saw something that I shouldn't, then my heart will be ache like nobody business and what if those pictures are no more there? My heart will be more painful because I know he is hiding things from me definitely. Never even think of being honest with me.. Haiz..

LOL

Can't wait for the weekend short getaway. can't wait can't wait.. Hope it is a good one. Am lazy to blog recently.. So this is it.. LOL..

Weird

Yesterday I had a new haircut. Colouring my hair for the very first time and perming it after few years time. Not a bad trying but I am still quite worried the after first wash maintenance. It could be troublesome and a long work. But still I am quite happy with it.

Yesterday I had a super weird dream. I dream of so many things and the single thing that I remember is the time spending with both of them. It is such ridiculous but it seems like hinting something or just me being too overreacted. I really does not know how is my future gonna be like with the conditions now but I am trying my very best to do what I can.. Hopefully everything goes well..

and today 8/1/2011 is our 3.5 Anniversary together. Happy Anniversary dear.. Muacks.. Love you..