Emptiness is killing..

Why do I feel so empty inside suddenly. I should be sleeping at this time but I am here wandering around. I don't know why this feeling suddenly came attacking me in the middle of the night. I guess this is a signal that I am getting further and further from HIM. So sorry, I have been wandering and loitering that now I don't really know how to find my way back. Or am I feeling too insecure with things surrounding me? I couldn't give an answer to all my questions arousing..

Another 17days and he will be back to my side. But am I really sure with that? Physically coming back but what about mentally? Is everything will back to normal after he back? Is that all? His heart will return to what it was? I really couldn't predict the future nor does he. But I think I should put more time on thinking whether we should continue this or not.. I don't want things just keep repeating and the cycles never stop..

Emptiness really kills.. Scary..

Angels around me...

I found a partime job at KLCC selling HA ( Home Appliances ) for Panasonic. The paid was not too bad and the working hour is appropriate too. I can get to go to church and at the same time no need to wake so early for work. Money money money, here I come but I will only get it July. Nvmla, at least this is my asset dy. Another 2 weeks to go and after deducting all the working weekend, it's only left with 10 solid days. I know dear is very busy with his preparation with the finals but I felt his changes. Now he spend more time to sms with me dy eventhough he is studying. I felt so happy with that coz I felt that we communicate more already. I really hope this remains especially that 4 particular months...

Another thing is recently I greatly feel the mighty and loving God that is always there for me. Whenever I am in need, he is always there to prepare me solutions. I truly grateful for that. For an example, last Tuesday I need to go for an interview at Kepong and that place is like a total stranger to me. God send His little angel, VB to send me there and accompany me to find the office. That building is just like the crime or haunted house scene. You can't really find single person there beside a strange foreman that try to play a joke with us. Next, I need to go for the training at Panasonic office and to get there with public transport is so hard especially at the peak hour. I am so lucky to have Yew gor2 to send me there and kind enough to waited me for 3 hours to send me back. Thanks so much to both of them and most importantly my Dearly God that is always there to hear my prayer....