End..

Done.. Everything is done.. Now adaptation mode..

It's just because she loves you...

Actually many guys did not realised, the fact that after girls putting out their temper, when they turn their back, they will cry like mad.

Actually many guys did not realised, girls don't really will mad at them, they just want their boy to care more for them.

Actually many guys did not know, girls will only nag when with their loved ones. They will only being very emo to the one they love.

You must know that if they don't love you, they won't even bother whether you care for them or not.

You need to know, if she does not love you, he won't throw her temper on you to make you pujuk her and pamper her. In front of other people, she is always someone very good and polite.

You need to know, if she does not love you, you would not have the ability to make her drop her tears, she won't mad at something more than 2 days. It's all due to a simple fact that she loves you. And this is also because you did not give enough care and concern to her. You did not understand her well. As a result, lots of argument occurred. Then, you will think that she is bad tempered. Then she will think you as not considerate enough. Cold war follows. You thought that she doesn't like you anymore. She thinks that you don't care for her anymore

In the end, you both treat each other as strangers. Maybe you might came across each other but as a stranger. It is a tragedy overall.

Because she loves you, she will sometimes throw temper at you, wants your pamper all the time.

Because she loves you, that's why she mad at you

Because she loves you, she won't bring the temper overnight

You should know, every girl is made up of crystal. Crystal is so fragile. You came into her heart so easily but left with injuries.

She never knew that there's someone that can make her cry. Because the person who deserved the tears would not let her cry. She might be cold, proud, persistent. She always ask you to go away, but in the heart ask you to stay.

Please open your ears, heart and listen to her real shout out. You can't see her tears. If you really love her, Please put her into your arms, love her more, pamper her more. We often see hurting each other in relationship. But what we need is warmness, sweetness and love and not hurt.

What she need is just your pamper, a kiss, a hug and your love...

* Appreciate your loved ones because there won't be second chance once you break the fragile crystal as girls really mean it if they are totally disappointed on you...

*Credited to Belle

6 subjects?

Can I endure the 6 subjects semester? I doubt it at first but I'll try to face it positively.. And anyone can offer me a partime internship?? I really need to complete it before April.. This intern thing is such a headache for me..

I lost my phone

Haih.. Today wasn't a good day for me.. My beloved W595 was stolen by some itchy and dirty handed people.. I did not expect this to happen at these times. I am so broke and why why why?? And all of us felt so amazed with how the thief actually work. We were all sitting around there but no one noticed any strangers or so coming near to us.. Okla, whatever it is.. It should be a lesson for me to learn especially after kena lecture from mum a bit.. Should I use my old phone? or get a 2nd hand for temporary usage or get an IPhone? Broke Broke Broke..

BTW, I got back my Sim card. So anyone reading this, please send me a msg so that I can get your contacts. Don't scold me, I know I din back up..

Self-Reflection

Attitude and how you view yourself really affected by how people view you? Socially constructed I would say. I think it's partially true. It much depends on how the relationship of the viewer and the context you are in. Some might say I'm noisy but in a different context I'm considered a quiet person to someone. No matter how, I realised something about myself.

• I can be very talkative that you feel like asking me to shut up when I'm around people who I am comfortable with but in a totally opposite manner if I'm full of uncertainty.
• I'm not really good in socializing or to be more precise I'm just not that kind of person. I don't really like socializing when I don't feel like but sometimes I'm quite amazed of how a few close friend of mine can really socialize ( I guess that's me )
• I can communicate better with guys rather than girls, don't ask me why but that is what I've observed. It can also be proved by the number of male close friends I have are so outnumbered female close friends. Some of my male friends tend to say they don't really treat me as a girl ( a brother? ) But it doesn't really matter for true friends. Some might think I'm extremely reliable ( according to most of my close friends ) but yesterday I found out a rather unusual case where a friend of mine don't really think I am ( but maybe because we are still not consider as close friends ). kinda shocking to me but we need to accept the fact that everyone has their own perception about something. You can't control what they perceive as correct and wrong. I guess that's the interesting part of life

Ok, those who are reading might suddenly think I so emo but in fact, I'm not. Just suddenly think of this and feel like writing it down. Ok, we move to other better things. Haha.. You guys should give me a clap of hands. I've just finish reading six chapters of SRM in 5 hours+ time. Wow... Friday is the test, so I hope I can finish it by today lo... Cheer everyone!!

Workout!! Workout!!!

The picture says it all.. Seriously I really need this but I'm just too lazy. So, I decided to fully utilise Mal's Uni sports complex ( where I don't have one ( Hate it!! ) ). Here are some of the pictures to show my effort. hehe...

Speed is important..

Tired dy??

Gambateh together!!

42 days of drought

Me~ Genting Trip


Hi Everyone!!! 41 days since I last posted. Sorry everyone!! Hehe.. I can really see the dust on my blog. Lots of things happen past few weeks. Happy and difficult times. But i manage to got through with all the support from loved ones ( I mean ones not one ). Appreciate a lot ( you know who you are ) Okok.. My mission today:

1. Updates

2. To end the long drought

3. Just for the sake of blogging

Updates:

a. I've been to few trips during holiday but as I failed to keep my promise of uploading the pictures due to some technical problems but close friend of my mine can certainly go to my facebook to have a look at it right?? so won't be a problem.

b. This is my 3rd week of studying. And guess what, I took 5 subjects, How dare am I?? haha... Quite worried at 1st that I'm not able to cope with it but so far so good la. Apart from that, I have 2days off per week ( excluding weekends ). That's such a good thing but everything is 2-sided. I can have 2 days off but my classes are all back-to-back. Some even 8 hours straight. But it's ok, I know I can do it!! Gogogo Sher!!!

okoko.. The feel of blogging can come fast like wind and go even faster like tornado. So it's time to say Bye.. More regular post... ciaoz...

The Black & White

The Black & White.. Haha.. Not a dress code party or what but it's just plainly a after Marketing Presentation look.. Haha... Enjoy some camwhoring moment... By the way, Jaja's dress was nice and she looks gorgeous that day. ( No wonder Naim look so shy when he saw her ) :LOL:

The Fab Five

Mark's Angel, Watch Out Everyone!!

The Mafia Look.. LOL

Don't Mengs

Angels

* Small icon pictures credited to our great Artisit, Sara.. Thx for the effort. From now on, we got an icon that belong to us... HAHAHAH>> Bengs, Mengs, Gils, Mamps, PAds Muks, Bods........

One Year of Happiness..

8th of July 2007 is a special date where this person came into my life.. Haha.. And now it's already a year time. He brought me countless of happiness and his care and love is so abundantly poured onto me.. Thanks for all that dear. Yesterday we had a meaningful and enjoying night of celebration but it seems like a bit short for us.. We had Korean BBQ Steamboat ( Eat all you can, it is not too bad ) for dinner and later we had a drink at a lookup point at a place calles "Nga Nga San" ( Dun really know what is the exact name for it ). The entire KL view can be seen there, you can imagine how nice it is rite?? And I got a lovely bouquet of flowers from him.. HEhe.. Really likes it so much. Below are some of our happy moments.

Camwhoring during dinner

Me with the food

Thx for the lovely flowers again..

Dear with the KL view, he looks a bit uneasy though. ( Camera shy )

Had an unforgettable night

Love, The greatest thing of all...

Love, The Greatest thing of all

As sweet as the Lollipop

For me to love u, its so easy n natural.

But for me to not care so much for u, I hav to force myself to do so.

The Blue Sky

Wow.. I felt relieving much man.. Remember the last post that I said I need answers for all my confusion and puzzles?? I initially got some answers for it but now I realised that it doesn't matter whether my question being answered or not, the burden or the conflict being solved is more important and crucial. And guess what, I finally found out that I'm quite a selfish and one-sided thinking person where I normally ignored. But I know it doesn't help at all by doing so. I must face it and solve ti wisely and be more objective. And I think I did improve a little bit but I will keep learning for it's a better thing for us. Hehe.. The Happy Shermaine is back ( Thanks to him for the lovely lunch and a short walk ) .. And I found the blue sky after the rainy days... It is so relieving..

*Looking forward to this Friday. I know it will be fun enough for us to forget all the unwanted silly thought. Shoo Shoo all the stupid evil stuff.
* Wanted to watch lots of movies recently- Get smart, Hancock, To the Center of The earth, Made of Honour, Happening and much much more..
* A few close friends of mine told me they feel that my blog is a bit too short compare to the rest but that is so not me to blog as if I'm writing a Thesis. I prefer to do something that is Shermaine-like and ease my readers.. Anyway, I'm not blogging for the public to see how well I express my opinion. I'm just using the chance to keep my friends update about me and to Crap to more precisely. Haha.. So whatever la..

Confusion...

Recently I did something unusual and stupid.. I'm such a fool to write something like that to a person that care so much for me. I guess I'm just too emotional and acted on impulse.. Haih.. I shouldn't do that, I should have more confident in him right?? But sometimes I'm quite confused on what guys are thinking, and it can changes just like what usually girls did. Erm.. kinda puzzling my mind now. But I hope i got the answer from the reply la.. But Sometimes I'm quite a confusing girl, I can be very positive when facing other people's thing but when it comes to my stuff, I'm just a small little helpless girl who comes up with foolish ideas and thinking. Funny yet conflict la my world??? But still I can't understand GUYS!!! They really think very differently from girls man, no wonder there is a saying of Venus and Mars... And I just need assurance I guess..

And today I got 2 results for my test.. Hehe.. They are both in extreme levels. One very satisfying and another one very disappointed. The reason for my satisfying is I totally gave up the test but yet I got full marks but when I put my full force into it, I got very low indeed. WTH?? So what should I do next time?? Try to repeat my giving up or put full effort?? Another confusing question to be think of.

*"Never think about the mistakes you made. Think about the mistakes you will make." *

Naim's Birthday Celebration

June and July are very busy months. All friends around me seems to like these months so much that they planned to born on these months together. From Lesley, Naim, Jaharah, William, Elaine, Apan, Li wei, Kin Hoe, Wai Ling, Mei Kuan and many many more. So sorry for those who I missed out. Too many indeed.. But I managed to get myself involved already in few of the Birthday celebrations. Lesley's one came first then Naim's one and next our Miss Jaja's. Now I only able to get NAim's birthday's pictures But I'm still waiting for pictures of celebrations to be uploaded, so for the time being, this is what I got..

The Birthday boy with the nicely baked cake...

Having lunch at Nando's, damn long the tables...

The girls and the super lucky Naim to have us as his friend....

Will be uploading all the other pictures of celebration as soon as I got it.Waiting for Lesley and Jaja.. BTW, Mal went to Hong Kong today with his family. Haih.. Sure boring like hell dy. but never mind la, I still got lots of thing to be settled. My individual presentation on Friday but Guess what?? i don't even have a topic now... stress!!!! But I'm waiting for my souvenirs... Hehe..

ShOPpinG tHeraPy

Again.. I did not do so well in my test. This was my 1st test of my new sem. It only consists of 3 chapters and I can't do well.. WTH?? ( Luckily it is a "choose the best 4 out 5 test" ). Not really happy for it. And for that reason, I went on a therapy, try to have an experiment on it... which is the Shopping Therapy. It really works.. I went to KLCC alone and hoping for getting something just to make me feel better. And I end up spending around RM100 getting a top from MNG and another from ZARA ( I got those for cheap prices for obvious reason, SALES!!!! ) That encourages me to buy even more violently but I'm much more better after all... And I saw something nice for Malcolm too. But not getting it today la, probably tomorrow or Friday... But actually in the hidden part far inside me I felt the guiltiness to spend so quickly, I just got my allowance from sis yesterday.. Ish.. Hopefully it is not growing to become a habit of mine or perhaps already is... SCArY!!!! But honestly

ShOPPING IS FUN!!!

* I just realised it had been ages since i blogged.. So sorry for all the visitors.. Will update it more often. Just wait patiently la..

Hate it!!!!!

Hate it!!!

Why things just can't go the way you want... Disappointment over disappointment, really can't take it anymore la... I think even a high EQ phsycologists can't tolerate with it dy... But what to do?? I still need to go over it with my own strength.. This few days was like my worst week of all.. My emotion are just like the way tsunami attacks and the terrible China Earthquake.. Dunno what exactly happen to me. But I know I face few of my most difficult moment so far in my life. It looks so small in the eye of some people but for me it is something that greatly impacted me.. But I do believe it can be a test to see whether I able to overcome it anot.. I'm trying hard.

SMK Sinar Bintang

Wow.. just back from another camp. SMK Sinar Bintang. The 1st Malay school that I saw full of Chinese student. It is so rare to see a non-Chinese in that school. Weird har? But anyway, really enjoying going to this camp. Struggle to make d decisions to go cos of personal stuff.. But I dun feel regret at all. A lot of good memories and new learning from this camp. The student there is so talented and the thing that I remember the most is the teacher there, make me cried badly. Even more than Mr Sam.. HAih.. How can it be?? OK, now to the volunteer..... here you go..

Yan Qun- Really learn quite a lot although this is already the 6th camp I went. Thx so much for the guidance.
Bing quan- Makes me respect him more. Although not in a good condition in the terms of family problems, but he still with us and act just like normal just not to influence us.. Gambade!! Will support you...
Sung Yang- He is the person that will work and work and work without notice. Doesn't boast bout his work. Always humble and responsible. Jia You brother.
Samuel- A good gor2 of mine. U said that You know me more through this camp, me too.. I felt that too. I promise to help you during camp but as I say, U help me more than I do. Sorry for that. But you really did a good job. Hope to work with you again next time. A good singer and guitarist.
Pierre- This is the 3rd time we work together if I'm not mistaken. A funny person that deals with all the PA system..
Zhong Wei- He sings so well and a professional photographer too.. Waiting for all the nice pictures.
Zhu Yang- A funny yet cute little brother. He is so optimistic and you will always see him laughing.
Ken Hao- Another brother from Ipoh. Did a good job in the camp. Hope to see you next time.
Jia Xin- Our 1st time working together, but a really good sister... Rap so well
Wei Han- Haha.. see his development.. Felt so happy for you.. Keep on..
Jia yi- A sweet girl and well mannered girl at the same time. She can be very strict too.
Fu yang- A good group leader. Really touches me for his decisions of staying back for his group.
Grace- You can always see her smile hanging on her face. Bright smile..
Tian Ling- One of the youngest in the camp. Must Jia you oh!!
Tian Hui- Can see your effort in leading the camp.. Gambade too
Mei Choo- Can see your seriousness and effort. But you already did a very good job k??
Hui Min- A sweet girl that studying mass comm in KDU
Peter Pan- A funny guy in the camp. " Man lei geng Mei" hahahaha
Chang Xi- My group leader. You really good in leading group. Although he is only 18 this year but he can really give advices to the students like a really matured adult... Jia you

Overall it was a success!!! All glory to the Lord!!!!

FRee and Relax

You Know what???

I felt so RELAX and FREE when I completed my last presentation of the sem last Thursday. I felt as if I'm already on the preparation of to grad. haha.. It is too early to say that because I have at least 2 years ++ to go.. I'm just in my second sem. I know what makes me feel that way. After 2 weeks of hell university life packed with 2 major presentations ( worth 30% all together), a journal due ( 40%, crazy!!! ), 2 extra credit for Zan's class but not doing one, a 20% quiz with only an essay and 10mcqs ( another crazy 1) and not forget the 2nd radio podcast. That is so carzy that I barely watch tv or even talk much with my family that 2 weeks period. But now everyhting is over.. I can now concentrate on the last assignment of the

sem----> Intercultural Terminology Journal ( worth 30% ). Now I just need to complete this and wait for my finals in 3 weeks time. Wow.. must start studying dy... Aim of getting A's this semester...

* But there is still something worrying me. My radio Pod casts.. Can't be read.. OH no!!! Hopefully Zan found the resolution for this...

SMK Miharja Motivational Camp

Last Fri til Sun, I took part in a Motivational Camp in SMK Miharja after 7months++ not going to any camp. I'm in charging of few programmes and mainly into dancing. Happy to know the students and new volunteers there. They are much more better than what I expected. There's some description and some words that I would like to tell to the volunteers on the camp.

Yang Chin: As usual, our big Sister that always there to help us.
Bing Quan: The one that always know how to react appropriately to different kind of situations.
Xue Liang: Hate him because he makes me cry... But he is really a big KOKO to me..
Cheryl: A nice girl who always there when I need help
Daniel Shu: It is always so fun to have him in the camp. Non-stop converstion, partly bcos we are both 1987 and Dec babies.
Eric: A young volunteer that can be a really good food supervisor. Gambateh Eric.
Soong Yang: A good brother of mine. Always take care of me..
Davey: Another cute pianist+ good Toilet officer... hehe...
Eunice: Kelly+yoyo of our camp... Good programme leader
Mei Hong: Another 1987 baby in our camp. A good sister to work with. A good emcee as well. Our future psychology
Xing he: Our Jolin and Wong Fei Hoong. Funny and happy person
Jacky: An energetic and tough group leader. Our future biotech pro from UCSI
Yao Chi: Our Bro Kei that has cute smile
Samuel: Another funny guy that doesn't look like his age at all... Anyway, a good group leader.
Ah Han: A brother of mine that try very hard to be at his best, and he did it too.. congrats..
Yue Yi: A sporting big sis that is actively involved herself wif the students
Ern Ern: A little brother that always be surrounded by the sense of humour
Lydia: A typical good n pretty girl look. Very polite as well
Agnes: A sweet girl with sweet voice. Our future nurse
Cathlyn: A girl that sings so well that everyone will atract to it
Peter: Our multi-task part time volunteer

Wow.. Really gain a lot throughout the whole camp. All praises to the Lord. May God Bless all of you. Waiting for the next chance to work with you guys...

Updates!!

It's kinda long since I last posted here. Dunno why but just couldn't and do not want to blog for the sake of putting in new things in my blog. But I added new things in my blog. The Statcounter. I found out from one of my friend recently about it. That's cool because I can get to know exactly how much people are visiting my blogs coz most of my friends told me that they had visited but didn't leave any comment so I really didn't know if there's any visitor unless they leave a comment.


This is my 3rd week of year 1, 2nd sem in Help. Everything seems to goes well so far. I still can't see any pressure that worries me yet. That should be the thing la coz I'm only taking 4 subjects this semester. That shouldn't be a very tough task for me la. But I will try and was promising myself to study hard this sem. I found out something very funny about myself recently. I like to blog when there's something important that I need to do and shouldn't be here blogging. Hehe.. Tommorrow I got a quiz for my HBA200 which is the Intro To Business Admin and I'm here blogging. Maybe this is a good place for me to relax and take this as refugees la.. hehe.. Anyway, do hope that I can do well for the quiz and also for the rest of the sem. GAMBATEH!!!!

Went to Pavillion last Saurday. That was my first visit there. It was so big and to walk from one shop to another makes my leg suffers. And I like the CNY deco there to. It's nice and grand. I watched a movie called 'Cloverfield'. It is the 1st movie from many2 movies that I'd watched before that I came out 3o minutes after the movie started. I din mean to critisize it, indeed it is a quite OK movie but I just can't stand the way they film the movie ( for those who already watched the film or ever see the trailer will know what I mean) So sorry, Mal for wasting the tickets and makes you can't enjoy the movie as well... But we did enjoy oursleves after that... hehe..

shop!! shOP!! SHOP!!!

Yesterday went to Sg. Wang with Dang and Sing Li!! OMG!!! Three of us is like so mad shopping around for bags and clothes. I got myself 2 nice tops, a jeans, a short and a skirt. Izzit a lot?? But really can't resist it. Really can't remember when is the last time I shop that hard. But actually din really use a lot of money cos for all that stuff, I only used RM250. That is quite worth it. Once a year should be very OK la. Dang got a pair of clothes which doesn't really "Dang Sylvien" and Sing Li also got herself a top, a bag and a skinny cut jeans. Everyone also seems to be more 'maju" in the New Year. But we really don't feel satisfied yet. We plan to go again next sat to continue our shopping spree with another new member joining us that is Yap Yin Gwan... He he.. Shop till the last cent. But we really did that yesterday. At the end of the day, three of us really broke that we only left money enough for the transportation. ha ha.. Horrible right??? Now really looking forward to next Sat.

Aim for:
Dang: Cowboy skirt ( Comma ) and shorts
Sing Li: More clothes
me: clothes, shoes and bags..