End..

Done.. Everything is done.. Now adaptation mode..

We are stronger this time..

Finally another round of apart. Although this time would be a much easier and less tough one, departing is still a difficult task for us both. Hopefully the lesson we learnt from the last time can make us more clever in dealing with this kind of thing.

The small last talk just now was great although we both break into tears. At least our heart is closer to each other, our hug is tighter, our kiss is so deep and our tears is so real... At least those tears is a more positive one if we think from the good way.. I know we can manage it in a much better way this time. Things happen makes us grow.

All the best dear in your first job. I know you can do it and just believe in yourself. I am always here willing to be your listener and will always support you. Take good care and I will too. So do no worry about it..

Mum's surgery in another week+ time. I know she is bit worry about it and so do us. But relying on God makes us felt much more confident about it.. Hope everything goes really well...

I want to go travel....

Air Asia promotion is so tempting.. Really loves going travelling especially now the air ticket is so affordable and very soon, am earning Singapore dollar and that makes the value of our money higher. Saving for travelling is no more really that hard. When the money is no more the problem, another problem arises. You are the only one wanted to go travelling. Don't really understand what makes it so hard to go decide and set an aim as a motivation for our hard work. Haiz.. Really potong steam to the max!!!!!!!!!!

$ is everything..

What I want is just some effort? Am I asking too much? I know I should have be more understanding but I also need people to understand and see things inside my shoes. Ya, $ is always more important, even me...

Am sick again physically and mentally..

Just back from Genting Highland with dear, Dang, Soo Chin and Amos. Still remember how 11 of us went there and had a real good trip and now left with five of us here visiting the same place. The worst thing is me and dear fall sick so badly there. Flu and fever isn't feeling that good at Genting because it is way too cold to be bear by two patients.

Sometimes I feel it kinda san fu because I couldn't differentiate whether it is really from the heart, pretending or actually it's just a sense of responsibility. This makes me feeling insecure again. hi to my old dear friend..

I had few chances to actually view those things but I choose not to. Not because I am really that saint but what if I saw something that I shouldn't, then my heart will be ache like nobody business and what if those pictures are no more there? My heart will be more painful because I know he is hiding things from me definitely. Never even think of being honest with me.. Haiz..

LOL

Can't wait for the weekend short getaway. can't wait can't wait.. Hope it is a good one. Am lazy to blog recently.. So this is it.. LOL..

Weird

Yesterday I had a new haircut. Colouring my hair for the very first time and perming it after few years time. Not a bad trying but I am still quite worried the after first wash maintenance. It could be troublesome and a long work. But still I am quite happy with it.

Yesterday I had a super weird dream. I dream of so many things and the single thing that I remember is the time spending with both of them. It is such ridiculous but it seems like hinting something or just me being too overreacted. I really does not know how is my future gonna be like with the conditions now but I am trying my very best to do what I can.. Hopefully everything goes well..

and today 8/1/2011 is our 3.5 Anniversary together. Happy Anniversary dear.. Muacks.. Love you..

The days with him around...

Ever since he came back, so many events, outing, celebrations and trips going around.. What a busy and wallet bleeding month. Full of tears and laughter at the same time... Lazy to blog one by one, as usual, pictures do the talking for me..

Outing ( Pavillion )

Hatyai Trip

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41st Anniversary Celebrations

My 23rd birthday Celebrations

Malacca Trip

Sing K session with dear's YNP gang

Actually there's tonnes more but I am only choosing some to post it up here as an update to those who sincerely wanted to know what's going on in my life recently. Pictures on lunches and Mal's birthday celebrations is yet to come. Another thing that I would love to announce to my dear blog reader is I decided to try my luck at our neighbour country, Singapore. Now seeking around for jobs, anyone has any contacts or recommendations, do contact me personally ya.. Thanks...

Piece and bits of life

Remember I was saying about thinking whether to attend the day or not? But that is just the outer me, inner me am so happy with the invitation. I told all my close friend about it and they realize how excited I am. I already spare that few days for this. I rejected a few invitations too. I am even thinking about the preparation for that night already. I even told my mum about it. But a news drag me from heaven to hell. I am so disappointed. I have a feeling that I am not yet accepted by them. I am still not part of them. How do I tell people about it? I am just being silly to be so simple-minded. What can I do? Even him is not fighting for me. I can just say ok, fine ( nod my head unwillingly... sob sob.. )

Sometimes I think i am too overstressed on the term responsibility and promise. I always put so much burden on myself and I need to fulfill all the promises. I think that is very important or the basic element of a human being. but i think i am overstressing it.

I am done with my thesis. Finally everything is done. job hunting will be starting soon. hope that I can find a job that I am desired of..

Tired..

Just back and it's super tired.. shall blog about it very soon with pictures..

Craziness

Me

Dear..

Us at Pavillion..

Another one..

The outdoor view but a little too small

Thesis is driving me crazy..

Another two more days to our Hatyai trip.. Hopefully the tedious task will come to an end. Tired of planning and co-ordinating..

The Important Reunion...

Finally the long waiting 155days has come to an end.. I was thinking maybe the felling would be very different after going through all the things this 5 months.. Ya, the moment I saw him from the arrival, I have some weird feeling and the feeling is like I don't really close to him.. I don't know how to response.. Maybe because we have not seen each other for 5 freaking months.. But all the feelings came back straight after a while.. Today the first day was awesome.. I can feel the feeling that we have for each other in the very beginning of our relationship.. very sweet and loving.. As if in our eyes only manage to place each other.. Dunno leh, maybe this is one sided but I am really satisfied with today.. haha.. hope the happy2 and sweet us comes back will lasts......

Wishlists..

I have so many plans in mind.. Since no one will read this blog, might as well I just write it here to remind myself the incomplete missions..

I want to:

1. Korean Food again at Korean Village
2. I-City, Klang
3. Ikea meatball
4. Mahjong session
5. Tony Roma
6. Sashimi..
7. Buffets..
8. Puchong Shabu Shabu
9. More trips: short or long will do (Ex: Bali, East Malaysia, Malacca and Genting again? Island: Langkawi, Redang, Pangkor)
10. Getting an Iphone
11. More movies.. Long since I watch movies..

Uncountable things I wanna do... Haiz.. Don't when can I do all of this?

And another thing, all this 23 years of living, I finally know my lunar calendar's birthday: 23/10..

Means it is equivalent to 28/11 this year.. If everything alright, I will be at Hatyai celebrating it..

I am really do not understand why sometimes I have to take all the blame that I have nothing to do with.. Those who close to me will know the thing I hate the most are false accused and frame but why did I take all the blame although I did not at all intend to start any arguments? I really don't know why... So pain but i choose to use that heart bleeding way to stop the arguments.. People always say, what make my day? I would say now what ruin my day? because I am blind and stupid lo.. No other explanation for it..

A blog with no reader...

I am right.. This blog has no reader.. No one reads my blog.. that is good.. Means I can crap and shit whatever I want here...

8 Signs of Rocky Relationship...

WHEN a relationship ends in divorce, you often hear one partner exclaiming that he/she had no idea things would have turned out that way. Really and truly though, relationships don't just go sour overnight, there are normally tell-tale signs that scream that something is not right. Some people ignore these signs, hoping they will just go away, while others are too busy to even notice them. Couples should take the time to examine what they are doing right and look for ways to improve those things that they are not.

If you ignore the signs, you should never point fingers or blame anyone if things don't work out your way. Here are eight signs to identify a rocky relationship.

Sign # 1 — Communication is minimal: If you find that you are only exchanging words about the weather, the children, the house, or if you are just saying hi and bye, or yes and no, then your relationship could be in big trouble. It doesn't matter how long you have been together, you should be engaging in regular communication. You should be talking about your hopes and dreams, your joys and sorrows and everything else in-between.

Sign # 2 — When sex is by appointment only: Some may feel that because they are still engaging in sexual activities then all is well; this is not necessarily true. Remember that some people will have sex only out of a sense of duty, no motion, no lotion, or anything of the sort. Mark you, it is a couple's prerogative to choose sex by appointment, but eyebrows should be raised if that's their only method.

Sign # 3 — Constant threat of divorce: For those who are married, it is wrong to keep on threatening your spouse with divorce as soon as you are displeased. When you consistently entertain the thoughts of divorce, it will easily become a reality. Constant mention of divorce can suggest that you are unhappy, dissatisfied, or disappointed and you want out. Do not even joke about divorce, because it is a negative word and it can have negative connotations.

Sign # 4 — Talking down to each other: When you are downright disrespectful, that is one sure sign that your relationship is heading in the wrong direction. Watch your words, and let only the pleasant ones escape your lips. Talking down to each other should be a definite no-no.

Sign # 5 — Consistent arguing: Have you ever noticed how some couples are always arguing? Everything that one says offends the other? Couples who secretly resent each other may not verbalise their true feelings but sometimes, unbeknownst to them, it shows up when they are relating one to another.

Sign # 6 — Lack of trust: Regardless of what might have happened in the past, couples must find ways to restore the trust factor because it is a foregone conclusion that lack of trust is a root cause of breakdown in many relationships. I can almost hear you saying it is not that easy, but never fail to try and keep on looking on the bright side.

Sign # 7 — Plans only for self: Single people tend to think 'I', while married people normally think 'we'. Therefore, when things are not going right in the relationship, one partner may even subconsciously revert to the 'I' way of thinking.

Sign # 8 — Your spouse is not your friend: Lots of family therapists will tell you that your partner should be your best friend and I agree that this is the ideal. However, this might be easier said than done. If this is not your case, continue to work at it. If your spouse is not your friend, not even in a minute way, then it will only be a matter of time before your relationship ends.

Remember that your relationship is like a plant, treat it well and it will blossom and flourish to beautify your surroundings, but leave it unattended and uncared for and it withers and dies. A plant that is on the verge of death can be restored to life with proper care. Likewise, a relationship that is on the rocky road can be revived, if you are aware of what to look for and how to make the appropriate amendments.

Magic Word

Got scolded just to wait for him to on9..

Got burned just because to learn to cook him something..

Needed to work very hard and survey all around just for his birthday present..

Sleepless night for 4.5 months just to wait for him..

Wake super early because worried about him..

Spend so much for him..

Planned so much and face so many obstacles just for a happy trip..

Got accused and being commented by friends which all the accuse is not true..

Tears are poured just as the greatest waterfall..

Mentally and physically exhausted because of him..

ETC & Etc & Etc... uncountable...

Everything is for him..

I am amazed that how Love can do to a person.. One can lose his mind totally for the word "love". one can totally become irrational and do whatever for the person that he/she thinks worthy.. But in return, what that person can get? If he/she is being appreciated, the love will flows continually and happily. But what if not? The suffers are feelings cannot be translated into words.. really fascinate how I can undergo all this pain and yet still can survived.. But how's the future? No one knows except the Almighty One.. It seems not bright enough for me because everything seems so one-sided.. What I am holding to that makes me still go on? I guess is the same old word: LOVE

Bodoh me...

Am I really wrong? I just wanna care more and I really couldn't understand why my effort is always being stepped and put aside like beggar?? I did so much but why you wouldn't know to appreciate? I really don't want life like that.. I want someone that is supportive and always know how to appreciate me. So hard? Whether to go the gathering, now I should think properly.. before meeting them better make sure whether there's probability for us to go on or not.. I am so stupid for putting so much effort.. Now I don't think I want to do all thatI have planned dy.. Why should I? In return, just not appreciated and I am the wrong one.. Looking forward? Please la, don't be so naive.. What you think is good, doesn't mean people will like it.. Bodoh betul.. Please be more wise la, Sher... Waste your effort and more tears coming only... I realy feel like crying now.. but no1 will ever sakit hati for you also.... stupid

Korean Food for 3 consecutive day..

Emptiness is killing..

Why do I feel so empty inside suddenly. I should be sleeping at this time but I am here wandering around. I don't know why this feeling suddenly came attacking me in the middle of the night. I guess this is a signal that I am getting further and further from HIM. So sorry, I have been wandering and loitering that now I don't really know how to find my way back. Or am I feeling too insecure with things surrounding me? I couldn't give an answer to all my questions arousing..

Another 17days and he will be back to my side. But am I really sure with that? Physically coming back but what about mentally? Is everything will back to normal after he back? Is that all? His heart will return to what it was? I really couldn't predict the future nor does he. But I think I should put more time on thinking whether we should continue this or not.. I don't want things just keep repeating and the cycles never stop..

Emptiness really kills.. Scary..

Girl, the 8th wonder of the world...

All about a girl:

When she is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.

When she is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When she staring at you, she is wondering why loves you so much in spite of being taken for granted.

When she calls you everyday, she wants to know how you are doing.

When she sms you everyday, she wants you to reply at least once.

When she says I miss you, no one in this world can miss you more than her.

When she says, i will stand by your side, she will stand by you like a rock.

Girls always special.

She is said to be the 8th wonder.

She is always a priceless treasure.

Never hurt her or take her wrong or for granted.